LOVE me for who i am

birthdays(:

2010-06-26T00:29:00.006+08:00

SO SAD I CLDNT POST ALL THESE ON THE ACTUAL DAY ITSELF ):
BUT I DID POST ON FB ORH!
HAHHAHA :D

12th JUNE 祝浩子生日快乐!!! (guy on the right!)22nd JUNE 생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida) HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY YONGHWA! (: my dearest shin-woo ge!!!! :D
25th JUNE 생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida) HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY NICHKHUN!!! (: my dearest THAI PRINCE :D ohgosh, your wink! Y

:D

i dont wanna walk this earth if i gotta do it SOLO...

2010-06-20T16:00:00.005+08:00

i just cant stand the way you treat friends as if they are a burden to you. i dont really care about the matter, but your attitude irks me. ARGGHHHHHHH. and before i on my com i was still writing we shldnt vent things out too much on our blogs for my bao zhang bao dao. BUT I CANNOT TOLERATE IT ANYMORE UGH.

ahhaha okk. last week of hols~~~ mixed feelings :x wanna go back to school, but i cant bear to leave my bed my teevee and my com UGH. ahhahha:D rights ok. i think the whole world's mugging except for me o.O but but but it's okay to go slow right...as long as you continue..as long as you dont stop? RIGHT RIGHT. ah nvm, i've always believed in that :D

周杰倫 - 說了再見

天涼了　雨下了　你走了
清楚了　我愛的　遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放　放不掉　淚在飄
你看看　你看看不到
我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
我不能就這樣失去你的微笑
口紅待在桌腳　而你我找不到
若角色對調你說好不好

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

你的笑　你的好
腦海裡　一直在繞
我的手　忘不了　你手的溫度
心碎了一地　撿不回
從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

泪了-东城卫,曾沛慈

天快亮了能不能别离开呢
沉默像首悲伤的歌
捂上视线却模糊了

你要走了也带走所有快乐
甜蜜的片段散落了
疲倦了心冷了我哭了

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离
你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

离开我了
梦醒了还剩什么
我要的幸福消失了
你的心曾经属于我的

那流星闪过
我们许下一个愿望
要在一起绝不分离
你怎么放弃了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪哽住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

有过的快乐我都记得
回忆还旋转着爱怎么停了
我们都累了

星空在闪烁
像你的眼泪悄悄划过
当你放开了手离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁
而我的眼泪忍住不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远离开我

突然想爱你-丁当,周华健

突然想爱我已不是小孩
却像首次告白只想被你爱
突然想爱最坦然的坦白
像赤裸的脚踝舒服自在

活过来我都爱
突然明白之前的都不算爱
我都爱活过来
责无旁贷也包括你的不可爱

总是突如其来爱还让人眼界大开
原来一切值得期待
总是突如其来爱像河流进了大海
原来应该这样存在
　
突然想爱最温柔的覆盖
草地等到花开信手拈来
突然想爱我已不是小孩
却想被你溺爱只想被你爱
　
活过来我都爱
突然明白之前的都不算爱
我都爱活过来
责无旁贷也包括你的不可爱
　
总是突如其来爱还让人眼界大开
原来一切值得期待
总是突如其来爱像河流进了大海
原来应该这样存在
　
爱是耐心爱是勇气
爱是默契不言而喻
爱是上瘾爱是不可理喻
我还不了解的事
　
总是突如其来爱还让人眼界大开
原来一切可以忍耐
总是突如其来爱爱之所以成为爱
我在就为你的到来
　
总是突如其来爱还让人眼界大开
原来一切可以忍耐
总是突如其来爱爱之所以成为爱
我在就为你的到来

我以为-品冠

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂, 我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.

我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害.

我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.

我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.

我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.

他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.

他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望

想你就写信-浪花兄弟

看你在摇椅上织围巾一个人在客厅
只剩下壁炉里的光影
木材在燃烧的声音
画面像离家时的风景我那年的决定
许下的愿望都很好听泪却红了眼睛

你说想哭就弹琴想起你就写信
情绪来了就不用太安静
你说爱了就确定累了就别任性
原来感觉是如此亲近

还记得院子后的风铃学燕子在飞行
我们俩长大后的憧憬珍重的话很轻

你说想哭就弹琴想起你就写信
情绪来了就不用太安静
你说爱了就确定累了就别任性
原来回忆是如此温馨

你说想哭就弹琴想起你就写信
情绪来了不用太安静
你说爱了就确定累了就别任性
原来回忆是如此温馨

你是我的OK绷- 浪花兄弟

一个人的时候在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know 地球另一端有你陪我
谢谢你鼓励我勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know 你是我的OK绷在每一个时候

拿一个旧皮箱装着我的梦想
我要开始决定旅程的方向
设计稿在桌上一叠伟大理想
当成这些卖不出去公仔的床
有天我突发奇想把这些公仔送孤儿院的小孩
看着他们的表情满足的那模样
看着他们快乐我也跟着饱了

离开了家乡开始我的流浪
身上只带着公仔Qpee和Guitar
它们陪着我永远不寂寞
还有还有一只大狼狗
牠名叫阿福整天跟着我
在我最最难过的时候给我温暖的眼神
肯定的微笑准备往前出发

一个人的时候在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know 地球另一端有你陪我
谢谢你鼓励我勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know 你是我的OK绷在每一个时候
一直陪着我

外婆教我唱的童谣我也从来没忘过
她说周杰伦唱的稻香她也没忘过
就算失败就算沮丧依然记得回家
伤心就抱着家人朋友好好哭一场

艳阳会晒乾一切一切烦恼忧伤
服下我的疗伤歌曲良药并不苦
用耳朵用心听我唱我的精彩故事还没说完
蝴蝶蝴蝶飞在天空挥动翅膀阿哈
牠其实从前也只是只毛毛虫
阿不要灰心钱没再赚失恋再谈
只有生命不能重来所以珍惜它的精彩
我们全都是渺小蚂蚁却都有存在的那意义
不愿失去别失去勇气那就创造回忆
裙摆舞动飘逸踏出旋律涟漪的倒影

一个人的时候在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know 地球另一端有你陪我
谢谢你鼓励我勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know 你是我的OK绷在每一个时候
一直陪着我

趁太阳放慢脚步如果你想跟上就必须要更努力
折一架音符纸飞机（音符纸飞机）
心系着未来的奇蹟（未来的奇蹟）
飞吧用美丽旋律来洗礼我们在大树下的约定

一个人的时候在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know 地球另一端有你陪我

谢谢你鼓励我勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know 你是我的OK绷在每一个时候
一直陪着我

INVADE OF THE SONGS!
ahha kk :D

:D

without words;;

2010-06-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

i love my friends :D for making me laugh
i love my juniors :D for going the extra mile to console and assure me
i love my seniors :D for just being there
i love my family :D for making me eat and shop so much
i love my tv :D for making me cry and laugh
i love my iphone :D for making me preoccupied
i love my com :D for making me think clearer

thank you, for being here with me these days.
i will emerge, stronger than before, hopefully.
i'm a strong girl eh, like how i tell everyone.
sad i may be now, but i strongly believe, that tomorrow will be a better day.

you never know it, but you guys do make a difference in my life. <3

:D

some magic will do the trick right now (:

2010-06-06T15:15:00.002+08:00

CAMPFIRE'S OVER (:

what can i say? the only emotions i have now are : regret, disappointed, sad, relieved, lost, and maybe just a little happy? the more they say it's good, even great because that it's our first campfire since 2007 (3 years gap!), the more i feel that it was really bad. and the more they say you really gotta thank the plc for bringing this campfire back, the more i feel it was totally wrong for us to fight for it and should have just organise a training camp or some other thing. i really dont know how to feel.. ok then i told myself, process more impt than the result! then i realised, the process wasnt really good too? it was one of my worst planned activity i can say..

but..really gotta thank everyone for their effort! i think we all see this improvement in you guys and well, hope y'all can continue(:

i cried like so many times in those two days...tears of sadness, tears of regret, tears of joy, tears of relief, tears of gratefulness... but yeah. then we were talking to oriole..then charis smsed me at night..and i was like... OK. I'M REALLY LEAVING GUIDES. I'M REALLY LEAVING ORIOLE. i guess, no matter how the rest of the people say they hate guides, guides is so sian, they're so happy they gonna step down soon, i still feel sad and cant bear to leave my darlings ): i guess the best thing that happened to me was that i am part of oriole. and thou you guys might never ever see this, and i will only write to you guys at farewell, i reallly gotta thank you guys for being my pillars of support all this while. everytime i look at you guys, my spirits will be uplifted somehow~~

i cant imagine the amount of tears i will shed on farewell. heh.
i cant imagine the amount of tears i will shed when we graduate from school, heh.

AH WELLS.

haha ehh the overseas call with pam to chien and the two guys was so awesome :D:D

我是谁我是谁我是谁 - MAGIC POWER 魔幻力量

我是谁你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁只有不是自己才安全

为什么你以为这个世界很美丽
为什么你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什么这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什么到底做错了什么

朋友都说你太太太奇怪
在背后把你当成笑笑笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在

你想要的很很很简单
不过就是最普通的的的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看

无论他们又说什么闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什么小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful

会不会上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会是故意整你不是不小心
会不会你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会坚持要做自己太危险

凭什么难道比较特别就是不对
凭什么先下了注解在认识之前
凭什么只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什么随便就把人定罪

朋友都说你太太太奇怪
在背后把你当成笑笑笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在

你想要的很很很简单
不过就是最普通的的的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看

无论他们又说什么闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什么小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful

我是谁这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我是谁我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽

halo/walking on sunshine :D:D

2010-05-27T22:08:00.004+08:00

love glee remix songs:D ahha, even thou i dont watch :X

ANYWAYS. LAST DAY OF SEMESTER ONE TODAY!
hereby starts a (supposedly) hectic june! ahha:D
i have no determination to sit down and start mugging lehhs, how? ):
ahhaa, anyways...

I REALISED I HAVE BEEN REAL STUPID!
remember me mentioning my darling孟德 few posts ago?
ahhaa, i forgot to mention my other darling SHIOU, 修杰楷 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i'm stupid because i only realised him in sanguo, BUT I FORGOT THAT HE ACTUALLY APPEARED IN 白色巨塔, 恶作剧2吻,原来我不帅,痞子英雄, and most ridiculous that i never realised he was my 阳阳 in 福气又安康!!!!!!!! and he's actually acting in 混混天团!!!! omg! out of the 5 shows i mentioned in the first part i watched three, and i never noticed him!!! tiannnn ahhhhh! HOW CAN!

想念你跩跩的样子喔!!!

:D

終極三國 ♥

2010-05-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

as i clicked on 終極三國 ep.53 pt.1/7 K.O.3anguo 大結局, i know that my journey with 三國 will end in just one plus hours..from the time i lost the chance to watch 終極一班, to the determination that i must watch 終極一家, to the eagerness i continued with 終極三國, yet TV disappointed me when it showed halfway. and it was only recently that i remembered it and started to watch the remaining episodes online..and i must say, i have really enjoyed this journey, no matter how ridiculous this whole show is. it showed me the true-ness of friendship and kinship, and oh gosh, how i harboured thoughts of having such wonderful friends! to this, i will dedicate the rest of this post to the cast, and well, my all time favourite phrases from the show :D
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夏兰荇德·天(夏天); 鬼龙;
夏兰荇德· 雄
灸大镸荖·舞
火焰使者
夏兰荇德·宇;鬼凤
叶赫那啦·思仁、黑龙、断肠人
呼延觉罗·脩(东城卫首席团长!!)
韩克拉玛· 寒; 冰心
神行者、枪灵王
a Chord
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刘备·字玄德

曹操（字孟德） (曹会长!!!!!!!!!!)

孙权（字仲谋）

关羽（字云长)

张飞（字翼德）

马超（字孟起）、约翰

黄忠（字汉升）、玛丽亚

赵云（字子龙）

孙尚香（叶赫那拉·宇香）

周瑜（字公瑾）

小乔（乔　倩）

大乔（乔　玮），韩克拉玛·寒

吕蒙（字子明）

太史慈（字子义）

甘宁（字兴霸）

孙策(字伯符）

袁绍（字本初）

诸葛亮（字孔明）

吕布（字奉先）

董卓（字仲颖）、夏兰荇德 · 流

貂蝉

叶赫那拉·思偍（孙坚· 字文台) 叶赫那拉·思仁

李儒

镫

冥

戒

华佗（字元化）

黄月英（屎盖笔友）

丁小雨，灸亣镸荖 ·舞（声音）

王亚瑟

甘昭烈（昭烈皇后）

魅娘

王允（字子师）

汉少帝（银时空盟主）刘辨

左慈（字元放）

蒋干（字子翼）

阿标嫂

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WOOOOOTS!
OKOK NOW TIME FOR FAVE PHRASES.

阿标嫂: 阿标啊,我又对不住你啦!我的人是你的，我的心是赵云的，我的灵是关羽的，我的魂是刘备的，我的命是吕布的。但是现在我，就要变成曹会长的召唤兽!!!!!!!!!

孙权: 我沒有耐心解釋為什麽我要幫你，給我專心彈!
孙权: 不要在我面前咬耳朵!!!!

孙尚香: 你永远都在我的圈圈里.你永远都是我的臭二哥!!! (你也永远是我的臭二妹!!)
孙尚香: 我们要开心到最后一秒,好吗?

关羽: 我们每一天都要跟对方说我爱你!...... 我爱你,第三十七次!
关羽: 如果你感觉到阴影，别怕，那是因为背后有阳光。但是，我们兄弟不怕阴影，因为我们就是彼此背后的阳光。

马超: (你的冷笑话,我说也说不完啊!)

张飞: 甜蜜玫瑰床PART 2!

修: 不要每次弄我嘛! (我就是喜欢看你紧张害羞的样子!!)
修: 我要你记住这个字:修!
修: 够爱,只弹给你一个人听!
刘备：我姓刘名备，字玄德，是中山靖王的儿子，因为家道中落，所以非常的穷，全身上下最贵的，就是我流着贵族的血液，只可惜，我的血型是O型，每次去卖血都很便宜，真衰啊。

阿公: PIZZZZZZA!!!
阿公: 不告诉你，告诉你也记不住，要有健忘症才记得住!
阿公: 我有健忘症, 忘了. (再装傻,切八段哦!) 好,我记住了!! :D

小乔: 你无可救药的聪明, 终于能理解我!

诸葛亮: 一减六分之五再减六分之一，曹操你还有六分之二的家产耶！

董卓: 好气好气，找人消消气！
董卓: 我的好~~~~~~~~儿子啊!!

每人: 如此如此,这般这般,如此这般,这般如此~~~ :D 加EST!

guess you guys think i gone crazy le. there's still lots of fantastic phrases i cant rmb now, but trust me, theyre in my hearttt! :D:D:D
cant wait for the fourth series muahahah!

and before i go, i wannna say a great big thank you to caitlin choo min ci :D:D
love ya!

:D

you kept me going on strong (:

2010-05-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

曹操,字孟德!
曹会长!!
曹家军!!!

我最亲爱的~~

NYLON 陈乃荣

生日快乐乐乐乐乐!!!!

伍贰零!!!!!!

when all went wrong today, when my mood was ruined by almost everything,
the thought that it's your birthday cheered me up instantly.
thank you for bringing joy to me, i will never forget those laughter i spent on you(:
YOU'LL NEVER EVER SEE THIS, but i trust that you can feel it even thou we're miles apart(:

超爱你喔!!! :D

:D
i wish i cld be at your bday party(:

444th post. HAH. HOW FITTING.

2010-05-18T23:53:00.003+08:00

OK FINE I SCREWED MY MYE.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
this wld prob be quite hurting to those who did worse than me but i really gotta sayyy:
FOR THE FIRST TIME, As ARE MY MINORITY IN THE WHOLE REPORT BOOK.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i apologise to those i failed to comfort, because firstly, i need the comfort too. and secondly, to me its no point comforting and make someone feel better by saying "it's ok". COS WELL YOU AND I KNOW ITS NOT OKAY! and it's no point asking one to continue working hard when well, she already did! the most i can say is..let's just go slow, no matter how slow we get, as long as we dont stop, we would be alright. eh?

YEAH RIGHT.

i prob gotta be thankful i dont have an underline this time.

and guess what, i made a bet with my hon(:
the day when my sciences become better than my humans, I WILL SERIOUSLY CONSIDER THE PROSPECT OF TAKING UP FORENSICS. ha.ha.
we'll so see about that!

IT'S BACK TO GUIDES and well, it's just one more month, so i'll make full use of it (:
hehe.
oriole ftw! :D

right. ok. i dont have much xin qing to write much :/

~~我们许下美丽的心愿
心愿许下我们的明天
不管多远远到天边
我们总肩并着肩

就算彼此没时间相见
电话简讯也不会断线
我能感觉我的明天
都是你笑脸填满我记忆里的画面~~

~~强辩乐团&任容萱 - 小心愿 ♥

:D

do you remember?

2010-05-13T20:11:00.003+08:00

OHMEEGEE. please dont ask me to go out two days in a row, or go out the whole week mianz!

monday after school i went to bishan and amk to look for an nonexistent pink panther.
tuesday after school we went out to eat.
wednesday after school we went MARINA BARRAGE + PLAZA SING
thursday marking day we went VIVO + 313 (we met so many people! like thea quincy felika manshin and gang blahhhh)

WED AND TODAY FTW(;
reallllllly tiring but we had lots of fun and laughter (: that's what matters right. i was thinking, it's probably good we went out and not choose to laze at home cos then it'll be terrible adapting back to mugging in school TOMORROW again. ohtian MT INTENSIVE-.- lols:D right, i promised the fun msges we received and created during the period of exams..so here are they! :D

CREATOR: SWEEYING!

Eenie meanie minee mo
You'll ace ss yeah i know
You have studied you-you-you have studied
Don't fret yo!
(Sung to eenie meanie starting rap)

Hey girl, do not fret,
You've mugged oh so hard,
Fight and you'll score,
Distinctions enough to bore,
All As, there's no Bs,
Mama's jaws r gna drop n
Yeah you beat all the rest, and ace all the test.

A b c d e f g
Lit is gonna be easy.
Don't you worry,
You can do it,
You will score very well!
(Sung to the tune of a b c d alphabet song)

Oh no Oh no baby it's geog exam tomorrow,
You don't have to worry cos you've studied really hard,
I-I-I'm sure you'll score a distinction,
So chill babe and don't freeeak out.
D-Don't freak out
D-Don't freak out,
You're sure to score well,
So don't freak out!
(Sung to telephone by lady gaga)

CREATOR: KAILI!

I know you studied
I know you mugged
Just chiong whatever that is not done
you want those As
you'll hate those Bs
So let us never never ever give up!!
-sung to baby(:

i want nobody nobody but you
i want nobody nobody but you
oh~~a1 is my friend, so could you come to me,
i want nobody nobody, nobody nobody but a1 !!!

check yes eh-eh-exams are you with me
brain is spilling down on the sidewalk
we won't stop until we're done with them

check yes eh-eh-exams kill the limbo
we can do this so let us just do it
pls dont stop even if it's red light

lift up your books heyohheyoh
here's how we start

score baby score
don't ever give up
give yourselves a chance and
you'll beat those teachers

now we will get all As
And say bye to Bs

score baby score
dont ever give up
You and me
(sang to check yes juliet)

no song
no poem
no cheem stuff today
just wanna say,err no no I WANNA SCREAM:
DO YOUR FREAKING BEST COS ITS THE LAST SUBJ FOR MYE TMR!
omgg...can you believe this! ((: jiayou jiayou^^

AND NOW FOR CHIEN AND KAI'S CONVO(:
(it started from chien smsing me...)

Chien wen say to kai li: i got a dream. Kl say: eat ur eggs. Cw say: i
got to take hold of this here world, baby! Kl will say: eat ur eggs
and go to work. Cw say:i got to change my life, i'm choking to death,
baby! And kl say: ur eggs is getting cold! Justin bieber overheard and
he say: baby baby oh~ my baby baby oh~ i'm just being random

kl says," you dowan eat your eggs i eat ah.i lovee eggs!!" hahaha.
kl says,"with chienwen,life's routine. Without chienwen,life was
unbearable"(tkam) HAHAHA(:

Cw: u jz don't understand, kai li, u jz don't understand.

kl: you never really understand a person until you consider things
from my point of view- -until you climb into my skin and walk around
in it.

WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE LISTEN TO ME TODAY!

that you led a (not) modest double life never dawned on me.the idea
that you had a separte existence outside our household was (not) a
novel one.

Wow never heard this line before sia. Btw i left d youngers and
finches and now wf newton

oh? huhh~~ newton's third law states that for every chienwen,there
will be a BETTER AND OPPOSITE kaili(:

Newton 1st law states tt when cw is at rest will at rest and cw is
in motion will continue in motion at constant speed in a straight line
if no kl acts on it.

HEY! newton's second law states that the resultant force acting upon
cw is equal to the product of the abilities and natural beauty of
kl!! :0

AND THIS SPECIAL ONE I DID FOR CHIEN ((:
看我看看我不要总是想着他
好坏好坏不管好坏
你已经尽力过了
不要盯着那分数
不要再那三心二意
你明白的你清楚的你超级的头脑

有时候想起你没做好的丢掉快丢掉吧
还有她那最可怕的微笑忘掉快忘掉吧
我永永远相信你是行的醒来快醒来吧
你有多么多的才华
请你要好好地保密

Oh my Super girl 你是我的 Baby girl
你要好好相信自己平凡背后的魔力
Oh my Super girl我是你的 Super Man
你的眼神让我着迷
除了你那伤心的眼泪

Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~
Oh~ oh~ Oh~ oh~ (my love).....

also, i wanna thank sharon, tata and averil for constantly sending me msges, wishing me good luck as well! you girls were awesome :D

HAHA. kk if only i cld pon sch tmr UGH.

:D

我只爱你

2010-05-08T10:20:00.005+08:00

wooots!! a break from all those exams! ahha. after next week's amath and spa skill three we'll be done! but like what i posted as my status, i'm starting to worry what's after exams. mainly guides. all those chaos. and well, june campfire. plus seniors coming back :0 i have like so many things to tell the respective levels, but what can i do? i cant be like hillary and post long notes and tag them cos well, not all of them has fb. and i fear talking to them facetoface cos i'm like not good with words eh. but there's like so many things i gotta say before i go. we're all so scared something bad will happen when we leave ya know. ugh ugh.

in retrospect i'm not even fearing my results, haha!!
oh which reminds me, after exams are reallly over, i shall post all those funny smses we all received this period, MUAHAHA. i'll prob attach a demo as well :0 kidding!! hahaa:D

ya know how sad it is when some friends become like temporary magnets? I'LL JUST TAKE A RANDOM EXAMPLE. like for example in guides we talk to each other like we're good o' friends, but outside guides, like during normal sch hours, they treat you as complete strangers, not even a simple smile! it's prob one of the worst things i experienced in sec sch. it's sort of worse than a friend who's constantly with you even thou she is fake sometimes. this one is like WOOOOTS. if not, when they want a favour from you, they act all nice and friendly. after that, all they give is some forced smile that is given as a form of politeness, not that they're happy to see you. ugh. i remember those times..ahhaaa...i think there aint any junior or peers who will be happy to see me.i rmb last time i'm always so happy to see my seniors HAAHHAHA. okok guys i just took a random example so dont take offence :x if y'all even actually read my blog :/

i've been having great dreams these days :D
good omen?
HAHAHA!!
ohoh, very long nvr do this le:

I WANNNNNNNA WATCH
艋舺(monga) ! **YES I HAVEN WATCH OH MY TIAN.
叶问2(IP Man)!
iron man 2!
混混天国! (not in spore yet thou')

hahhaa yuppp :D

now for some entertainment :D

Unofficial Lyrics:
you know i still love you baby
& it will never change
我爱你

chorus:
i want nobody nobody but you
i want nobody nobody but you
不管谁先伤害谁
我只需要你安慰
i want nobody nobody nobody nobody

乱了心扉
我不属于谁
别装作无所谓
刻意忽略我的美

高脚酒杯
已臻满颓废
心慢慢在破碎
变成一种负累

我就像受伤的玫瑰
需要你浇灌着泪水
你掩饰这伤悲
连头都不敢回
像独自长达三年的憔悴

chorus x 2

慢慢体会
幸福的滋味
只要与你相随
世界都变得完美
将友谊剪碎
爱那么的昂贵
就去了防备
在心里面陶醉

这份爱好像是花蕊
别轻易就让它枯萎
未来要怎么追
请不要不理会
只想和你紧紧地依偎

chorus x 2

i don’t want body body
i don’t want body body

遇见你
相信上帝
才能让我安稳入睡

chorus x 2
[same rap as the english version]

~~http://wonderfulsworld.com/2010/02/01/listen-to-wonder-girls-nobody-chinese-version/

this is cuteee!

赴汤蹈火,我都愿意.

2010-05-01T21:22:00.002+08:00

赴汤蹈火,我都愿意.我只恳求你,陪在我身边. :D

the more, the longer, we stay together, i feel that i'm losing you. real quick.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

that day i got so tired of studying i watched an extra one hour or so of tv. then i suddenly got motivated again when i saw my dearest 陈乃荣. AHHHHHHH. omg the way he looked at her while at the piano..woooooooots~~~~~~ oh umms this show is actually a singing competition for those 艺人who always harbour the thought of having new song albums, yet have been deprived of the chances repeatedly, and therefore went to acting or hosting instead. hmms. quite meaningful, actually :D admire them for chasing their dreams :D ya so that day 陈乃荣 went to help the girl who was contesting :D wooooooots~~

:D

超人不会飞(:

2010-04-25T14:55:00.004+08:00

wooots~~so looong nvr post le (:
ooh i just remembered i had a dream about my seniors.
haha i rmb tristina giving me stickers, I DONT KNOW WHY.
eunice was there too i guess.
ahha wierd :/

THREE MORE DAYS TO MYE(: HOW AWESOMES.
it doesnt even feel like mye, more of a series of tests. tests that will be recorded in the report book.
haha.

it's been a routine of endless geog qns, math qns and many others.. and i realised how exams are so focused on RESULTS nowadays. there's this stupid sword hanging above our heads, as if when we dont do well, the sword will drop and slash us immediately. shldnt going to school and having lessons be about learning new stuff, experiencing new stuff, discover the magic around us? i remember how i used to love school a lot a lot cos i get to learn new things.but now this passion is dwindling because everything is so result-oriented. where's the joy in the process now hurh? and not only for studies, even guides is becoming very result-oriented too. i still love going to sch but hey, it shldnt be just about results ONLY.

i felt disoriented when i realised how a friend preferred a hypocrite than an unmasked friend. maybe hypocrites have this special charisma and ability, to be able to attract people and be a "good" friend.they are fun to be with, because they love everything you do even thou they might not;because they know everything you dont even thou everything might be done just for pretense.they always get superr close to you, but one day you suddenly find yourself distancing from her.i dont know how it is, but i feel sad when i see a sticky couple, consisting of one who just wants someone to understands her, and another trying all sorts of underhand means to please her. wth. (and over here i mean a milder kind of hypocrite, not those scary scary ones haha)

i felt disheartened when i realised so many people around me are bluffing me, betraying the trust i have in them. those with reasons, i may not like it, but i do understand completely. those without reasons, youre losing this battle. trust me.

you know where it hurts most, and not only do you rub salt on the wound, but you add all the acids and alkalis. i always believe there's a very very delicate line between what's meant to be jokes, and insults. you may think it's an amusing joke, but hey, it cld be a terrible insult..or it cld be something that will hurt the other party so deeply.

i apologise to those reading, i guess i ave to vent these all out before i crack during exams, LOL.
no lah.
i'm still very happy(:
and guilty over those guilty pleasures i've been indulging in.
I'M SURE YOU KNOW WHAT :D

currently in love with lots of guys(: AHHH. ((:

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away - said if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again
~ Timbaland, feat Katy Perry, IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN.

:D

toched by an angel :x

2010-04-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

there are just some negative things i have to get off my chest(:

** dont ever criticise people when you yourself is not perfect regarding that particular point. for example, dont criticise people's clothes when you yourself dont wear well too. its just some random analogy so yupp. it's really very very irritating. i mean, do you ever see someone who sings off-tune commenting on a singing show? i mean he might be there for entertainment purposes, but i'm sure the contestant will listen more to a professional right? i'm really sorry but i just cant accept this thing. it irks me ttm.

**dont pretend to know things when you dont actually know. it's really really really very very fake. i guess it sort of show your eagerness to fit in or smth but it's very easy for the main person to rebut you. for example, say smth wrong about my stars just because you want to have the same topic as me is worse than you not saying anything. i appreciate the effort, but if you know i know better, dont try unless youre sure. or you can go like, "tell me if i'm wrong..you know the whowhowho ah.." ahh like that better..less fake perphaps. aiya i dont know la. sianz.

**dont think just because youre better means you dont 不耻下问. it's really irritating like for example, you're good in english and suddenly you dont know smth and ask me, then when i try to explain you go AIYAAIYA DONT KNOW LAH and dont even say thankyou. i guess it's just this feeling of being looked down. its not that serious yet but yeah(:

okk...talk about others le must talk about myself right(:

**i should stop using my phone to go look at jokes or go facebook when with my friends, it's really rude and terrible.

**i should stop looking at people using my standards

**i should get my priorities right and not help others blindly.

**i should stop rolling my eyes unintentionally.

the worst dilemma i face this week:
choosing between a lunch/an outing with friends and the extra time for me to study.
i think i always have this problem/but with midyears and o lvls it makes this decision so much harder.
but i chose friends.
dont know why(:

but well, i enjoyed our lunch(: enjoyed tremendously(:

HAHA LOLS OKAYY :D
wells, cca stops for midyears liao, awesomes? :D
and gonna watch MONGA this weekend i guess, AWESOMES!

and let me apologise to those i irritated and angered this week.
DUI BU QII! (:

牵心的朋友--大嘴巴
我是你心牵着心的朋友
像流星陪伴夜空一句问候难过就好了
我们是挺你到底的朋友
笑容来自你的快乐听暗号我们就喊又

:D

the art of being envy instead of being jealous :P

2010-04-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

"Love and magic have a great deal in common. They enrich the soul, delight the heart. And they both take practice"-Nora Roberts :D

i'm really really scared, that the reason we're not as close as before is because of the upcoming exams and ultimatly the o lvls. is it really worth the sacrifice? we no more have msn convo, no more longlong smses, no more longlong phonecalls. or is it my immature-ness blinded my ability to see the importance and urgency of STUDYING now..that a sacrifice so huge must be made. are you...still with me?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i realllllyae miss all me seniors. from regina-joyce-benedicta-annemarie-cheryl-ariel-yifen to eliza-ashleigh-sherry-kaiying-xiuhui-charlotte-eunice to joey-tristina-eunice-bernie-(qarissa not counted la huh) to other seniors who werent my PLC OR PSC...ughh really miss them. i mean, most of them dont even talk to me anymore..i really miss those who were rather close to me..i'm sure they know who..ugh.ahhhaa.talk about goooood memories ^^

and soon, i'll become member of EX-PLC, EX-CL and well, a real SENIOR.
mianz.
I'M OLD.

:D

exhausted XD

2010-04-03T19:29:00.004+08:00

i'm too tired to think or function, ugh.
艋舺 MONGA'S FANMEET ON 5TH APR. reallyae wanna go ):
and i'm so gonna watch MONGA still even thou its nc16 hahs.

EAWARDS ON TEEVEE LAST NIGHT WAS AWESOME,hehs.
was seeing zenia,michele,jac,shermaine,christabel the whole while on the screen-.-
LOLS.

sigh.will you still remember me a month later when i sms you again?
how about when june's over and we'll probably never ever ever be in contact again..
will you remember i had once passed by your life?

let's hope our crazy plan for going guitar concert and st andrews campfire works hehes(:

:D

we had fun with LIE DETECTOR XD

2010-04-02T12:11:00.003+08:00

OHMYTIAN, 艋舺 IS GONNA SHOW IN SINGAPORE. 15TH APRIL.

YEESH! I WAS SO SCARED IT WONT SHOW CAN. awesomes :D so basically i wanna watch 艋舺 and clash of the titans. aha!

happy good friday(:
happy holy saturday(:
HAPPY EASTER(:

you said it! i'm so proud of you(: now the good news is shared((: and dont be angry/sad about the boxing face thing kk..cos i was only trying it out the previous day..i havent exactly played with it yet! (: i'm not so bad luhh. terrible only, lols((: ohh and about the qn you asked me for liedetector, i was "shitshitshit"-ing cos i know it's gonna show more than 50% truthful one..so yahh.nth more! no underlying meanings! heheXD

KICKBOXING YTD WAS FREAKING AWESOME AND FUNNAYE.
hahhas:D
always wanted to learn boxing. and all the other violence stuff like karate, taekwando blahhh..
dont laugh at me lahs.
HAHHA.
forget it.

the best quote i came across today: "We cannot choose how many years we will live, but we can choose how much life those years will have. We cannot control the beauty of our face, but we can control the expression on it. We cannot control life's difficult moments but we can choose to make life less defficult. We cannot control the negative atmosphere of the world, but we can control the atmosphere of our minds. Too often we try to choose and control things we cannot. Too seldom we choose to control what we can, our attitude." -John Maxwell (Developing the Leader Within You)

:D

hyprocrites.

2010-03-31T23:49:00.002+08:00

actually didnt want to post cos then my nice post on dreams will be gone!
AND CAN SOMEONE HELP ME FIGURE OUT MY LOGIN USERNAME FOR SCH GMAIL?! UGH.
...................
OMG I FIGURED IT OUT.
OMG I'M DAMN STUPID COS I TRIED TO SIGN IN AT GMAIL.COM, THEN I JUST GOT TO THE SCH WEBSITE AND FOUND OUT I'M SUPPOSED TO SIGN IN FROM THERE. diaos.

2.4 today(:
passed(:
improved by two mins(:
great big thankyou to swee and chien and those who cheered me on(:
heh!

this morning i saw this writeup on libra, on this chinese newspaper from a few days back.
and it said that libra-ians are well liked and may have a lot of friends, but are naturally lonely.
whatcha think? hehs(:

whatever it is, i just dont feel happy this week.
like i'm only happy when i'm with YOU.
but yea.
emoing the whole time la.
aiya.
but at least...

OUR ANNUAL CAMPFIRE IS FINALLY CONFIRMED!
OMG.

am i a hypocrite?
cos i'm real scared i'm blaming others for being one yet i'm a horrible one myself.

:D

lovelyae(:

2010-03-28T19:39:00.001+08:00

FANTASIA VIII 2010!

YIPPEEEE!

there's just one faint line between being realistic and chasing your dreams.
we chose, to lean towards chasing our dreams(:

:D

I WANNNA WATCH 艋舺!!!!! ):

2010-03-26T23:19:00.012+08:00

woooots~~ my phone didnt die! ahhas :X

a roller coaster week for me..and for many of us i guess.
but i guessed we survived all odds, didn't we?
hahhahs!

just a month to MYE.
realllaye hope i can do well lehs..
haiz haiz haiz.

eh friend, thank you for telling me. i had been waiting, almost forgotten, but glad you did tell me in the end.ahhas...are you gonna tell the rest too? it's gooood news ya know(: and this week you were totallaye so high can..hahas! funnyae little girl ^^

好久没看了..想念..):

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/alien3647/32124355

http://nylonchen.pixnet.net/blog/post/30273677

was also reading chennairong's blog. and i realised i havent watch the second part of 第三季!! mianzmianzmianz..I WILL WATCH SOMEDAY. MUST! reallyae miss the cast can (:
ohmytian, read huyuwei's blog and wuhujiang 入圍了全球華語榜中榜最佳新人團體! AWESOMES (:

:D

we've reached the end.

2010-03-20T15:48:00.003+08:00

last night we had the most interesting convo we ever had.
no more serious serious and annoying stuff.
like what you said, sometimes talking gets us no where.
yupp...
we reallaye talked about everything.
lols.
it would probably be the last time we can ever talk like this because i bet you, 3 weeks down the road, you'd probably forget everything.
and i say three weeks cos i;ll probably be meeting you in two weeks time to sort out the things so yeap.
but yeah, all i can say is THANKYOU for helping me all this while and i really appreciated it. :D
cars are much better than pigs :D

i'm glad you;re not suitable for my carpark,
cos tt wont be good at all.
ahhahhaa.
lols.
hear that people, i dont like cars.
even thou that model not bad, in reality. ><>OFF TO ST MARGS CAMPFIRE SOOOON!

carpark(:

2010-03-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

MONTFORT COMBINED ACTIVITY 19TH MAR 2010, 圆满落幕!!!!

no more PIG(s), no more DANCER(s), no more CAR(s)-thou i probably wld see you on the road some time soon!
BUT YEAH MIANZ.
jump for joy!
hahhahah!!!

hehes, but the aftermath's seem more interesting, exciting AND SCANDALOUS!
lols, now that explains my flooded inbox!
woooots!
:D

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sorraye, you might be a NICE car, but you aint never gonna park in the carpark in my heart.
AWW.
but, just heard tt you aint such a great car after all.
GO CHANGE YOUR MOTOR LA!
*flicks hair and walk off*
ahhahhaa:D:D

now you people 死心 liao lorh.
now then believe lorh.
fine la.
ahahhahha.

:D:D

~YOU TURN MY HEAD RIGHT ROUND RIGHT ROUND!~

today is an emo day.

2010-03-17T22:25:00.004+08:00

i'm just not right today.

ANYWAYS, enjoyed ALICE IN WONDERLAND with them this morning(:
was not bad luh i guess.
we didnt watch 3D thou.
AND THEY DIDNT HAVE NACHOS IN THE MORNING. WTH.
but yeah, guess you could say we spent a rather short, yet quality time tgt. (:

but i think i was rather emo.
sorryae..
and uhh sorraye to those two when i kept wailing to go back home..
didnt want y'all to be burdened with the fact that my feet were hurting EVEN WITH SOCKS AND PLASTERS, so didnt tell y'all.
dont take offence :x

and umm yah. when i came back home i was even more emo.-.-
i was bathing then i thought of so many things.
thought of all the things i neglected these days,
thought of all those things i asked people to do yet i havent had the mind to compile them all together.
thought of all the impt things i missed/left out.

i guess i'm better after some amath qns(HAH.) and umm not to forget teevee(:
need to get on with...

MONTFORT.
JUNE CAMP.
ACRES.

i guess..

today my feeling is so different from yesterday's SPXPERIENCE(:
i was alone la, but for once i felt happy cos my grp was nice and well, the activities were cool.
some lecturer thought i had potential in some course, ahhaha.
NO LUH.
...
wanna look for our photos now..
hahhaha.
THEN I'LL GET ON WITH THE STUFF LISTED UP THERE
HEH.

如果没有明天
K One

别说什么都别说
嘘
你静静躺在我胸口
紧握着你的手
我多么的不舍
因为我们爱过
抱紧一些
如果看不见我的明天
要怎么永远
I don't wanna lose You
你每个笑脸
我都看得见
那么绝对那么的完美
如果没有明天
心痛是因为太爱我Ho
命运却逼得我低头
You know
我心里的不舍
我永远都记得
你会永远爱我
我想轻轻对你说
绝不会忘记你
在我心中还有个角落
装着相爱的记忆
再抱紧一些
我无法改变
我又能怪谁
一滴眼泪让人都心碎
我们没有明天

:D

inSPired.

2010-03-17T08:33:00.001+08:00

SPXPERIENCE WAS DA BOMBZ.
pampered with more choices now :x

wanna blog about it but looking at the time now, its almost time to get ready to go out for OUR MOVIE(finally), so later ba! :D:D

inspired.

2010-03-13T13:59:00.007+08:00

one day i would buy a nice camera and take the photos i always wanted to.
the different tones and the blurry-s and the focus.
that day, i would be free.

one day i would station myself in the kitchen and prepare the meals i always wanted to.
the western the chinese the italian and whatsoever.
that day, i would be free.

(it's just my craving for mash potato)

one day, i would do a whole wall of graffiti.
the colours, the splash, the imgaination.
that day, i would be free.

i'm so inspired, i could almost see myself doing it.
you know what, one day i would even live in a cottage.
and sit on the rocking chair by the fireplace.
then all my grandsons and granddaughters will be enjoying a whole meal i whipped up for them.
how inspiring.(:

Jason Walker-Down
I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down

the eng compre gnawed at me unwittingly.
i feel so guilty.
SIMPLISTIC THINKING. "Many go along with negative norms even though an inner gnawing tells them something is suspect. it is quite common for those who are circles, so to speak, to attempt to force themselves to fit into the square pegs of cultural patterns. they are unwillling to change the norms, in part to avoid paying the price of unpopularity, of bring viewed as outcasts or abnormal."

picture credits-photobucket!

:D

being aloof to your aloofness.

2010-03-11T22:17:00.004+08:00

last day of term one tmr..
dont know if i shld be glad or sad, hah.
you know wht, i rather they give us a substantial amt of hwk everyday, then to cramp everything in one week. i mean, how to revise everything(LIKE THE WHOLE LIT BK) and also complete the mountain of hwk?
like what nat said, "if you add up all the hwk given in one normal school week, you wont even have this much"
hahha. whatever. oh, plus training up for napfa. and numerous guides stuff. lols.

is it me or is it the weather-i have been extra irritable these days. i apologise to every single one whom i may have annoyed or i had been bad tempered at you, i probably didnt mean as much as i showed it, so yup:D

OMG XIAO GUI WILL BE HERE FOR FAN MEET TMR. AHH. I WANNNNNNA GO):
AND I STILL WANNA GO FOR E AWARDS LEH.
CRAPPIE!

i realised my scale is tipping off to one side horribly.
i still cant balance both sides.
awful.

是为朋友着想,还是借机为自己着想?
are you the same in your house as you are on the public streets?

:D

:D

time slows down whenever you're around

2010-03-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

apologies, for you know what :D

ANYWAYS, have been falling asleep in class more often nowadays, haiz.
ANYWAYS, have been doing badly for tests/quizes more often nowadays, haiz.
ANYWAYS, have been stressing over guides more often nowadays, haiz.
BUT,have been enjoying these days no matter how bad they might be, cos well, life is short, aint it?
LOLS.

cant wait for march hols even thou i probably be mugging(hopefully.)
cant wait for 16th mar-one day experience at poly(awesomeness.)
cant wait for 19th mar- montfort combined (oh no.)
cant wait for 20th mar- st mags campfire(i think.)

had been uploading my long overdued photos, proud of me a not? :D:D:D

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

:D

愛不需要理由(:

2010-02-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

HAPPPPPPY BITHDAYYYYY CHERYL TAN SHI RU! :D

hahaha:s long time no write :x
busaye busaye nowadays lahh.
with the no. of tests being significantly more than anything, lols!
i just wanna bury myself with tv when i heard next week's lit test was chp1 to 24, *frantically wiping sweat off my face* LOLS.

just realised i shld do a bday card for nicole.
ah wells.
no sleeping early this time again.
hahas.

i just love my purple iphone coverr((:

:D

we can collide with each other, but we may not have the minimal activation energy to start anything♥

2010-02-19T00:10:00.003+08:00

GOSH

i'm in love

with

......

(who y'all thinking off ahh ^^ )

PIANO MAN from youtube.

HAHHAHAHHAHAH! seee, must have faith in me. kk, anyways, he like plays all the "so-called-hottest" songs on piano, damn cool. so far i listened to sorrysorryanswer, ring ding dong, heartbeat, fireflies, replay, down, i gotta feeling, boom boom pow, tik tok, whatcha say, party in the usa.......

and many many more cos i'm still listening... HEHEHE.

:D

oh.so?

2010-02-16T18:45:00.006+08:00

"covering the wounded look in his eyes with a smile anyone would believe only if they dont know him as well" i changed the sentence a bit so that it makes sense here... ehh adapted from PROPHECY OF THE SISTERS, heh:D

well well well, i started out the CNY break with lots of aims and determination, but up till this hour, i only completed ONE out of the many many. so how? dead this week lorh. OH NOOO. :( I wonder when i can stop procastinating. grah.

the day when i regain my hardworkingness that i had from p1 to sec2, i'll be on the 6-pointer list. wish me luck, anyone? :D

UGH. IT'LL BE AN EXCITING AFTERNOON TMR >< style="color: rgb(102, 51, 102);font-size:180%;" >

lols. ME AND MY MAMA WATCHED PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF AT 12 MN, FREAKING COOL(:

HAPPY HAPPY SWEEET SIXTEEEN AVERIL! :D

:D

2010-02-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

YOU'RE like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay~~
-EDITED from sean kingston-replay(:

well well well,
HAPPY DARLING (VALENTINE'S) DAY AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS!
had fun spending my eve with taiwan, lols!

:D

baby, we're stuck with each other~

2010-02-10T22:15:00.003+08:00

"today, i just want to say thank you for everything.the times we laughed and the times we emoed together will forever be etched in my heart. you were with me during this trip, don't know when you'll leave, but before that we'll enjoy each other's company in this joint journey of ours. love ya(: "

whenever i'm feeling "PEEVED" (mockingbird,lols), or sad..i listen to you ppl's problems and realise mine's chicken feet compared to yours, so i dont feel sad anymore, lols.

i really dislike it when you make up to me almost immediately whenever we get angry with each other, and recently it seemed to have been always me who got angry first. i seem so selfish and not understanding. really sorry and next time i'll try to admit to my mistake first, alrights? love ya:D

it has been a bad week. hopefully all goes well tmr for chem test and fri for TOTAL DEFENCE marching. :D:D

SHONTELLE-Impossible
I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And nnow when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did...

SHONTELLE, FEAT AKON-Stuck with each other

You can, think you can get free
You think you won't need me
That you're gonna get you somethin' better,
But you know that we're in this forever,
And you can, think you can walk out
Even with your doubts,
But you know that we're in this together
You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part

Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it, baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin you can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there,
Tell myself that I'll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya,
and I can try to convince you
I don't need to be with you,
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
What can I do, love is like glue.
There's no way to
Tear us a part

Cause it's too late (too late, too late)
There's no escape, might as well face it,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
ain't nothin i can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
yes, we belong here,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

There's nothing i'd rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can't think of nothin better
Than to be stuck with you

Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,
baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah

Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,
baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin I can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Yes, we belong here
baby, we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

Cause it's too late, there's no escape
Might as well face it,
Baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain't nothin we can do about it
It's been too long, it's been too strong
Yes we belong here,
baby we're stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

Ain't nothin gonna stop me and you ey
Cause you know we just stuck like glue ey

Ain't nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other

forgive and forget!

2010-02-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

KUDOS TO PLC 08/09 AND PLC 09/10 FOR FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY GETTING A PNA AWARD AFTER A HIATUS OF THREE LOOOOONG YEARS! A BRONZE, BUT NONETHELESS, IT'S A SUPER SUPERRR GOLD IN MY HEART!

we'll get gold next year eh! PLC 09/10, continue working hard and continue squeezing points:D
to-be- PLC 10/11, jiayou ba:D

and much thanks to guiders, seniors and YA. you guys have been so selflessly helping us, thanks:D:D

it was a bad day today actually. but after i heard we got the award, it was blue skies and everything nice again:D thou it WAS a bad day, i learnt the ultimate virtue of FORGIVE AND FOEGET. awesome:D the PLs and chien could so be my witness, lols!

in love.

2010-02-07T12:13:00.002+08:00

CHIEN WEN'S BDAY SURPRISE!
4/2 SELF AWARENESS CAMP 2010!
RI GANGSHOW!

"Rah-Rah-Rah-ah-ah-ah
Ro-Mah-Ro-Mah-Mah
Gaga-ooh-la-la
Want your bad romance" !!!

this week's a real high and fun week, despite all the bad lessons and horrible marks, haha.
photos for those will be up SOON, i hope. like i always say. hahaa.

but i must really say that RI gangshow last night was freaking awesome! was tired from SA Camp but RI was totally worth screaming for, trust me.

and must say that SA camp was da bomb! three things i did most: CRY, LAUGH, SHOUT/GO HIGH. haha. ohh and thank you to my dearest AVERIL and CAMILLE, for the secret times we had as secret pals! :D:D:D

gotta choing hwk and other stuff now. haiz.

Justin Bieber Baby
You know you love me
You know you care
Just shout whenever
And I'll be there
You want my love
You want my heart
And we would never, ever, ever be apart

Are we an item?
Girl quit playin'
We're just friends,
What are you sayin'
Say there's another and look right in my eyes
My first love, broke my heart for the first time

And I was like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine

For you, I would have done whatever
And I just can't believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool
because I'm losin you
I'll buy you anything
I'll buy you any ring
Cause I'm in pieces
Baby fix me
And just shake me till you wake me from this bad dream
I'm goin down, down, down

And I just can't believe
my first love won't be runnin'
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

You can give me all of your love
But sometimes it won't be love
nobody told me this day would come
Now I'm all gone
You can give me all of your love
But sometimes it won't be enough
nobody told me this day would come

Cause I was like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like
Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Now I'm all gone, gone, gone, gone
I'm gonee"
:D

dearest:D

2010-02-04T22:56:00.001+08:00

HAPPPPPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY CHIEN WEN :D

Happy birthday
你就在我身边
和你吃苦一生
胜过天堂一天

Happy birthday
告别忧伤昨天
自从遇见了你
才是我 Happy birth day

:D

why oh why oh why.

2010-01-29T20:50:00.004+08:00

if i migrate, would y'all care?
would y'all cry for me?
nahh, dont think you would.
nahhnahh y'all shld be happppy for me!
just like wht chien said, "GO GO GO! DONT WANT TO SEE YOU TMR!"
aint that right?
hah.

anyways, enough of that emo stuff, let's get more emo. firstly i screwed up my phy spa. then i screwed up my lit. then today's chem, hopefully i didnt screw it up. LOLS!

you know what, i think i'm getting more agressive, more rude, more controlling and more irritable. hah.

Orianthi : According To You

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
loved not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

:D

you didnt let me down.

2010-01-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

dear, thank you so much for calling. i'm sorry i wasnt in the mood to talk about THAT.. but i really really appreciated it. maybe not everything are false hopes and empty promises. you made me realise that there's somebody out there who cares. dont know when you'll see this, but when you do, just imagine i'm giving you a hug now..rmb ah, i'm counting our hugs, haha.

and dont be too sad okayys. life goes on no matter what, so "delete" that frown and "copy paste" the smiles alright. it sounds weird me calling people to be positive when i myself cant, haha.

thanks dear :D

impractical.

2010-01-26T19:14:00.002+08:00

PHY PRACTICAL WAS NOT PRACTICAL AT ALL.
I SCREWED IT UP.
AND THIS TIME I'M FREAKING SERIOUS.

you know when you actually think 'bout it it was an easy expt, but cos we HAVEN NEVER DONE IT BEFORE IN OUR WHOLE FREAKING LIFE it threw us all off..no wait maybe not all cos maybe it was only me who screwed it up..and thus i dont really know what to look out for and all the precautions blahblahblah.

i guess i wont blame the teachers too much cos mr chan actually helped me. this time, i would learn to blame myself for the faults i did. and you bet i'll do well for the next two spas. wanna bet? hahaa..well, its nice being positive sometimes, dont put me down la!

looking on the bright side, thanksgiving mass went rather smoothly (THE PIANISTS AND READERS WERE AWESOME! i'm serious!), i passed my chem test and i did fairly well for hcl test. next up? chem(agn!) and lit test. oh dear.

:D

:D

they said when you wish for smth, it wont come true. you gotta HOPE for smth. lols.

2010-01-24T10:09:00.004+08:00

movies:
tooth fairy :D
valentine's day :D
percy jackson and the lightning thief:D
legion:D

universal studios opens next week:D
66, 48, 32 bucks respectively for adults, children and senior citizens :O
72, 56, 36 bucks respectively for adults, children and senior citizens(weekends, public hols, eve of public hols)

woke up super jing shen today, dont know why. i didnt even sleep early for that matter, lols. tuition later at 1125..sianz. its so weird saying i have tuition after a haitus period of 3 years, lols. but, what can i do...):

lets have some photos from ytd combined learning fiesta! i'll only put those with me..or my things..the rest you gotta wait till i upload SOME DAY. hahas! ohh, you'll see like two photos of my octopus, the one with longer tenticles was what i completed there. but when i got home it died, so i redid it and used the leftovers to make the dice, lols!! cos i was so fascinated by cheryltan's dices, lols! :D

:D

combined learning fiesta with CCF (:

2010-01-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPPPPY SWEET SIXTEEN NIA! :D

finally posted :X but wont be a long one cos i've got tons and tons of things to do. morning was this combined learning fiesta with CCF (guides activity) at queensway sec. quite cool actually. photos up sooon!!! this time, it's for real. since i'll be uploading them for guides/ms lakshimi anyway, lols! its gonna be a super hectic week this coming week, esp with the change in timetable and well, SS, CHEM, LIT TEST AND PHY SPA. how nice. i'm so screwed for my phy spa. grah!

my feelings these few weeks have been real shifty, from very high i cld get super low. let me say sorry to those around me if i ever annoyed you or freak-ed you out.. sometimes, its real hard adjusting, if you know what i mean. but you guys prob dont know..cos well...firstly you might not know of anything cos you never bothered to understand me, or secondly you might not have been listening to me or paying attention to me. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW, I STAY QUIET FOR A REASON. but oh wells, i guess i'm expecting too much from you guys again like i'm like some rockstar who's lovable and popular. but you know how weird it is if i just pull you to a corner and say "i'm sad. talk to me." right? lols. whatever. back to my "adjusting" prob, if you guys are ever interested to find out, you can talk to me. i'm basically free. lols.

kk sorry for that sudden outburst. things hadnt been going well. but maybe i'm too self centered.
rolling your eyes now? i'm sorry. i really am. anyways, dont worry, i'll cheer up and the next post wld prob be happier.....and for any other posts next time..lols! but that wld be fake, right?

:D

第几个100天也像刚热恋 ~~

2010-01-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

far--nie, today i just realised i've just become an AUNTIE for a one-year old niece. GOSH.
went for her bday party just now..lols. I DONT EVEN KNOW HER NAME. kk, that was so lousy. BUT YEAH.

coughing. crap. pls, i cant afford to get sick.

thanks to chien and swee's notes, i managed my binomial hwk. GOSH. my mum thought i was crapping when i told her i finished it..except for one qn, lols! EH, HAVE SOME FAITH IN ME LA. NEVER GO FOR FIRST LESSON ONLY MAHS. *wails* in the afternoon my mum and i discussed about jc VS poly education...then during the party also got other uncles+aunts+cousins talking about it..lols! whatever lorh. the first thing my uncle said to me after he said HI was, "OLVL 是吗?" my mum was like NO NO NO NO or else i wld be freaking out cos tmr is results, then she clarified is this year taking o's..LOL. but i'll still be freaking out COS WELL, CHINESE RESULTS TMR. goshgoshgosh.

help.

:D

i'm sorry if i've been extra bad to you.

2010-01-09T21:36:00.003+08:00

i've managed to not post during the one whole week of school! which also means...
I SURVIVED THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL, AND SUCCESSFULLY PULLED OFF SEC ONE ORIENTATION CAMPFIRE. AWESOMEEEENESSS!

hectic hectic week! on the first day of school i met saira and she told me smth:"do you rmb the first day you stepped into IJ when you're a primary one student? and now, it's the first day of your last year in IJ..." ten long years...so long yet so fast, yea? hahas:D lots of activities lined up for us this year, including 4/1 and us organising thanksgiving mass(first mass of e year!!), self awareness camp and well, guides stuff and of course the big fat 'o's... which reminds me i'm gonna die on monday. crap! the results!!! HA. and guess what, there's gonna be graduation and examination mass on my bday. THANKS..-.-

but first i want to apologise to pam cos ive been really realllly realllllly bad to you this week. maybe..maybe one day i'll tell you why.. and want to thank chien cos well...当初所怕的...应该是多余的吧...and thanks to swee for being with me this whole week, its been real cool:D we'll contd like this right, hahas! and i guess i really got to thank my PLC for being with me all this while preparing for orientation campfire no matter how much i annoy you or freak you out..you guys are really REALLY the best..thou maybe you wont even read this D: if i had a chance, i'd rather i knew you better from sec 1...let's contd working together for our last few months tgt alrights, LOVEE YA:D

campfire was alright i guess? hitches here and there, slacking here and there..but well, the fire was up, the backdrop was new and prettyyyae, the item was more enthu than usual and structure was a new idea! emcees, youre the best:D and thanks to the seniors who came, either to attend the campfire or just being there for us, teaching and guiding us along the way. was freaking out the whole while even thou i didnt even need to go on stage cos i was real scared smth wld go wrong, but eliza said smth that made me calm down(not forgetting the songs too la!):" dont worry la. it's started already. started alr..." YUPYUP. i shld learn to have more faith. AND HAHAHA CHIEN GOT LOUDEST PSL...me and pam were like totally cheering for you:D:D

pretty screwed right now cos i haven really actually touched my hwk and worse still, totally not well prepared for my chem and ss test next week all because after we're dismissed today PLC still had mtng with scouts/ventures, craps you know. so i guess i shld just prepare to get a big fat F. thanks.

:D

looking forward.

2010-01-03T20:29:00.001+08:00

'D' DAY HAS COME.
FFF...FFFFIRST DAY OF SCHOOL TTTMR....

HOLIDAY BLUES BLUES BLUES!!!

yet, all i wish is just one simple thing.
do you know?
just one thing.
let's see how tmr.

when i post this, the post with sj-m videos will be gone D:

:D

2010(:

2010-01-01T16:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEWW YEARR!

got lots of things to do now...so shant write much!
will post about my experience of counting down with taiwan soon!
HAHAHA!
just for a teaser, from 7pm to 1am i was with taiwan counting down...so shuang:D:D

oh gosh, i just went for dinner and saw yu bai...and it was my HUANG JING LUN hosting!!!
hhahhaa...and xiao zhu and a qin sang WO BU HUI CHANG GE :D:D:D

:D

i'm ready for 2010. i think. :O

2009-12-31T16:25:00.007+08:00

HAHA. so how's the skin? the navigations' names are actually titles of songs/shows.. and the icon pictures on your right...they'll change everytime you come to this page..didnt want that but i dont know how to make it not random so yea...and the song....HAHAHA. wierd choice but since the day i heard it, it has been STUCK in my head(all thanks to lee chien wen) so ya....and it doesnt play automatically COS I DONT KNOW HOW TO. tried for veryyyy longggg lorhs. anyone wants to help? hehe!

last day of 2009! 2009 let me realised e true meaning of "有得必有失". i've gained a lot, but i've lost quite a lot too. i guess it was a year where i 乱了脚步, resulting in lots of de-provements in both my studies and friendships. but it was a year where i had lots and lots of chances and learnt a lot a lot from everything i did, whether they're successful or failures. i also got to know myself better, how i think and why i think in certain ways..you can say i became more emo...but yeah... there are a lot of things where i cld have been better, like sticking to my schedules and not procastinate that much AND TO MAP OUT MY PRIORITIES PROPERLY, but i guess there's 2010 for me to work towards to and after all the setbacks, i'm ready to be on track again and CHIONG! but the fact that i survived thru 2009 in one piece, i really really want to thank those who were around me! other than my family, i would want to specially thank...

PLC 09/10; for being there for me always and made guides crazier than i thought!
PLC 08/09; for the chances you gave me!
GUIDERS; who were almost always there to help me!
KAIYING; for all those study dates we had, we really had lots of fun yea!
3/2'09; for all the friendships we made! and for all the jokers:D:D
ORIOLE SEC 2 JUNIORS; you never know how much you guys mean to me but really really thanks for those talks that we had and also decreasing my doubts about my position! we're more than just seniors-juniors yea! whatever e others say, i always have faith in you guys cos after working with y'all, i know y'all do have the potential!
SHARON; for helping me before exams..i gained quite a lot!

and well..most importantly,

PAMELA; for just being there and trying to keep our bond go stronger than ever, to be honest i had doubts about us before but i guess i can confidently say now that our bond is FOREVER!

CHIEN; for being my SUPERSUPER partner! i wld never had survived lessons without you! thanks for always being there to listen to me and advice me and most importantly, trusting me with your stuff and well...for the craziness we had! i dont know what will happen next year, but who cares, WE'RE STILL GONNA STAY THIS WAY YEAH.

SWEE; for always cheering me up and pei wo do tiring things like training for napfa, etc! you never know, but you made a significant impact on my life and how i shld behave sometimes!

hehe, love you all!

as for 2010 new year resolutions(HAHA)...

* one digit for 'o' s (without deducting the bonus pts)
* a great big PASS in all tests and exams
* make guides better than ever and hopefully helping e next batch to get SILVER/GOLD for PNA
* make acres a big big success
* not losing myself
* continue watching all my tv:D:D
* not losing all my friendships and the bonds we so 辛苦 maintained
* be a better person, in terms of the things i say and how i behave, and well, maintain a better temper
* to be closer to my family
* TAIWAN again at the end of the year(this time, free and easy)! hahaa, unlikely but other countries also can la!
* start working and continue exercising once 'o's are over
* save more moolahs! (MONEY!!)

oh, before i go,
THINGS TO DO TMR(mustmust!)
~~ DFTL ppt!
~~ finish up chem 10yr series!
~~ upload tw picturesss!
~~ anymoreee?

2010, 放马过来! :D

scared.

2009-12-29T22:37:00.003+08:00

GETTING BUSY AGAIN. WHY? COS GUIDES STARTED. HAHAHA!
and for the first time in my life, my sms inbox is filled with guy's smses... and not because i have bf, but because of guides, GRAHH!

anyways...
guess what, i've no idea how to set my priorities for next year.. studies. guides. acres. three biggest problems in my life now, ahhaa! and what i'm afraid is, while trying to juggling these three, i lose my friendships, the bonds we had..and most fearfully, losing myself in this huge big mess. my mum's nagging at me to put studies as my TOPTOP priority, but how can i when i have guides and acres? AND THE POINT IS I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ACRES, all thanks to pon swee ying my dearest! hahaaa, no offence, dudette! i dont really mind but what i'm really scared is that i neglect my studies all because of these.. like IT'S O LVLS MIANZ. ahhaaa.. i dont know...

for guides, it's just "six more months"... but it's gonna be a gruelling 6mth period with thousands of things to work towards to and living up to expectations... but we're gonna do this well... we must... and for acres, other than getting the cip points, i'm really glad i'm doing smth meaningful and i really hope all our thingys will go well...and we dont lose that interest that will allow us to procastinate blah blah blah.

does that mean less tv next year? WATCHA THINK.

i wanna watch ALVIN AND CHIPMUNKS 2!!
i still wanna watch avatar ):
and all those movies i mentioned before... ):

:D

"peace,if allowed. rest, if deserved. love, if given."

2009-12-27T16:08:00.004+08:00

ohno, my post before i go taiwan will be gone):

"sunlight on the blue petals of the cornflower, on the crushed crumpled burst of pure colour that sprang like a new day form the stiff green stem. he looked more closely, and as he looked he saw that the blue of the bunched petals was not uniform after all, there were flashes of a darker purple where the shadows fell, and the palest blue, almost white, in the direct light of the sun. how had such a joyful extravagance of summer sky exploded form the green stalk? he drew the glass nearer and with his face now at the level of the flower he searched for the join, for the point at which green turned to blue, as if somewhere within the stem he would find blue veins that ran down in the growing flower to the source of the blueness, some hidden sapphire buried deep in the ground. but there was no join. the petals grew from the stem as the narrow green leaves grew from the stem, sharing the same substance yet transformed. he felt that he never properly looked at a flower, had never before appreciated the miracle of the coloured world. this plain white sun-dappled room made him his gift. in the midst if simplicity a thing of wonder. why does this place made him so happy?"

-an excerpt from NOMAN, the third book of the noble warriors trilogy. (same for the title of my post!)

have you ever observed a flower closely? have you, while drowning in the glitzy world around you, neglect and forgot the simplest beauty beside you?

yepp, gone to the library again:D

GUIDES TMR. ha.ha.ha.

:D

HOHOHO!!!

2009-12-25T19:59:00.002+08:00

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS, BABES!

hahaa, its rather cool this year, got one present from my tuition teacher and my mama bought US a xmas pressie too :D:D:D its like this hugeee blue doggg:D she actually went to ask if there was a purple one but of course they dont, cos lemme ask you, if you see a purple dog, wont you just scream!!! but hey, i'll scream too if i see a blue dog, ahhaha:D

and thank you to NATALIE, EUNICE AND PAMELA for your xmas cards:D:D i haven really checked the mailbox today so if there are some of you who sent me one and i didnt note down your name here, dont fret! ahhaa:D

ohohoh and thank youuuuuu to everyone who sent me midnight xmas messages!

gonna be stuck onto my tv tonight:D
i shld be watching tv now but hey, what's xmas without a xmas post!

hohoho!

:D

new skin will be up when 2010 comes ((:

2009-12-24T20:28:00.003+08:00

one my fave page on my blog's gonna disappear): cos my obs post will be gone.. gahh!

"reality tv was touted as the great new hope for the digital era. a new genre featuring real people in real situations, laughing real laughs and shedding real tears. but it has fallen prey to the easy temptation of pre-packaged programming, degenerating into a scripted charade controlled by off-screen handlers in which contestants shed fake tears and throw sham tantrums to wring a few drops of interest form the blase viewers. and why blame the viewers? all entertainment nowadays is prefabricated. even war. no wonder death has also lost its capacity to move us."
an excerpt from SIX SUSPECTS, VIKAS SWARUP

AND...

万凸3-大嘴巴 new album.
第幾個100天- jj new album.
罗神门-小猪 new album.
:D:D

wanna watch AVATAR for very long le):
and also:::: princess and the frog, 十月围墙,
叶问2 (still long laaa...)
and also.... CHIEN LOOK AT THIS: 刺陵((:

i dont like the ending for six suspects )):
but the whole book was awesome....even thou it was confusing at parts, hehe!
ahhaha, and i received my first xmas present today:D:D:D

videos..again!!!
hahhaha, today xiaozhu wearing PURPLE PURPLE PURPLE hoooodie :D:D

watch from 5:18 onwards :D:D
my hu yan bing so funnnnnnnyae((:
实力派歌手也可以帅喔((:
but i dont think he very shuai, he just cute in his way and his 魅力很够喔(:

watch from 8:27 onwards:D:D
gosh, when he's drunk he gonggong one .. :D

:D

my 400th ppost :D:D

2009-12-23T17:27:00.007+08:00

gosh, i just realised my "prt scrn" button works!!!
yipppppeeeee :D
ahhhaa, watching 20091218 娛樂百分百 Super Junior M粉絲同樂會(下) now.... remember i posted 5 videos in my previous previous post? that's like (上) so yeahh....
cos i kinda forgot to watch (下) on tv that day=.=
omg ytd's one was far--nieeee!
cos rainie came and xiao zhu keeps disturbing xiao gui....
interested? go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3peQuYyqDs&feature=related and you can look for the other parts toooo :D
cos last time rainie and xiao gui same sch, same class.. then got... *ahemahem*...
HAHHAHA!
then i was looking for it on yt when i found more of last time's one about both of them :O
funny sia.

SIX SUSPECTS IS COOL. :D

[edit]after watching...((: [/edit]

"所以我们要保护歹徒是不是?!" :DDDD omg look at 8:12 ....

awww...look at 2:58 and onwards ...for a few seconds:D omg this whole video is totally made me LOL... lols!!! :D

POＰＯＨＥＹＹＹＹＹ!!!（亲一下！）

4:53..RINDDINGDONG! ahhahhaha.... did i tell you e song was stuck in my head ytd? along with super girl? ahahh! omggg...the little kids are freakking cutee:D SUPER BROTHER.. haha!

omg...cutee! the black one is damn shuai..for a kid..hha!

AWESOMME.

ohh..go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOGXFH-M13A&feature=player_embedded for a different version of sorrysorry! quite nice:D smth like the one they performed at the awards... ahhaa:D

:D

STARSTRUCKKK...

2009-12-21T16:53:00.005+08:00

I THOUGHT OF A SMART IDEA WHEN I SAW THAT MY CHEN NAI RONG'S POST IS GONNA BE GONE FROM MY PAGE.
HAHAAA.
SO THIS PIC IS LIKE IN MY PROFILE NOW((:
A LITTLE SMALL BUT THE ORIGINAL SIZE CANNOT FIT):
TRYING TO PUT INTO SKINS BUT YEAH...
TRYING LAHH :p

OHH.... and tuition was err...umm.. :O
i felt stupid.
haha!

if you dont know.. (from left: 浩角翔起, 孙自佑, 陈乃荣, 修, 胡彦斌
bottom: 武虎将)

:D

tuition tmr :O :O :O

2009-12-19T21:35:00.006+08:00

first thoughts of taiwan.
my first impression was the weather. the sun was shining but HEY, it was like cooling :D then second thing that i noticed were the houses, which were all short unlike the high rise buildings in spore. i later learnt that it was because of the frequent natural disasters in tw.... and the houses look old and dirty but then i learnt later that its cos they use 水泥 to build most of the houses, and because most of the rain there is acid rain, it sort of "ruin" the houses... hmms:D the taiwan of morning and afternoon is real different from what i watch from tv, but once its night and you see the night markets then you go "WOW. I'M IN TAIWAN". ahhaha:D

去台湾的遗憾.
first was the food they provided. totally not appealing to our taste.... either the food was bad or tw's taste is real different. but the thing is, the food that we buy ourselves, like form the nightmarkets or stuff like that, taste GREAT! especiallly love the rice cos theyre like the jap rice but is "made in tw" one so yeaaa... love the chicken too, DUH! their chicken is like extra juicy:D
second was I DIDNT GET TO SEE ANY STAR. like WHATTTT?! and i didnt even get to see like 三立电视台 or any other tv stations.. was disappointed lorhs. also didnt get to see any 签唱会!
third was there was only one day when the tv in the hotel got ALL the channels in tw, like hundred over. then the next two days got more channels than the first few days, so i still get to enjoy my shows luhh:D
last was i didnt get to visit the places that i wanted to go, such as MR J, 垦丁, and all the other 夜市,民宿, that 食尚玩家 introduced ):

did you know?
TAIWAN HAS WINTER. i mean, LIKE IT SNOWS. i mean, ON THE MOUNTAINS. hahaa:D on our second last day the temp was like 20 degree Celsius, then on our last day its like 15 degree celsius, and its like their 寒流... then when we reached the airport for departure it was FREEZING cos its like 11 degree celsius.... grrr! we heard that it will drop to less than 10 on the next day then i was like "i want to stay till tmr!!!"

overall thoughts..
i expected more i guess. but cos my parents insisted on guided tour so everything's quite limited.. but i'm glad to see the different sides of taiwan that i never thought existed cos on tv it's mostly the glitzy glitzy part of taiwan.. maybe it could have been better for me if i had gone there with the excitement that i didnt have, and if i didnt mind the clealiness of the toilets in the hotels too much...haha! the bus rides were freaking long too, like the longest was almost 4 hrs! but we watched some movies! like 2010(last half), 叶问((: ohoh i watched UP on the plane(: anyways, wanted buy a lot of things but aye....没钱啦.... i reallly hope to go there again, this time free and easy of course! but.... i sorta feel like going with my friends ahaha. hmms:D

PHOTOS UP ummmmm SOON? :D

*****************************************************

ohmegeeeee, TUITION officially starts tmr.
like my FIRST tuition since p6 :O
hope it'll be good,hahha!

whoo, very long nvr do this le:

read TELL ME NO SECRETS before i went to tw, was a cool book :D unexpected ending!
just read finish HIDE AND SEEK (my first james patterson book!) and omg, its so not for me cos its way too vulgar and umm horny...ahhahah! but i like the storyline:D well the fact that i finished in 2 days mean smth eh:D
have two more books with me : SIX SUSPECTS & JANGO (second book of noble warriors trilogy) and i cant wait to read them:D:D:D

OK MAN-黄靖伦's second new album :D:D
失业情歌-胡谚斌's new album :D:D
地球其实没那么危险EP- 谢和弦(achord)'s new ep :D:D
LOVE_HERO愛&英雄- 小鬼's new albummmm!!!：Ｄ：Ｄ

YAY!
aahahahha :D
next up, enjoy the videos!
the first one is one that i frequently saw in tw, with my dearest 陈乃荣 :D
second one is 黄靖伦's newest 主打 song that is frequently broadcasted in tw :D then he went channel v and he and 蚊子 danced to the song:D:D he cant dance for nuts but he's damn cute:D:D like his behaviour and how he talks :D you shld look at him when he was still competing in 超级星光大道!
third one is a change of lyrics to the song GEE :D:D:D damn funny.
and yep, you got it, i fell in love with channel v over there, hahah! (see, zenia!)
oh and did i say, ytd 娱乐百分百 starred SUPERJUNIOR [M] !!!!!!!! damn funny and cooool :D will continue on monday's one :D:D:D omg and yes, i like them now... kinda.... just a little.... ahaha :D i still prefer tw.... DUH. :D

just decided to add some of these :D watch no.3 onwards especially, their dance is like :O :O :D

new song(:

korean version

I THINK I PREFER CHINESE ONE. HAHA.

:D

i want to celebrate xmas! :D

2009-12-18T21:19:00.001+08:00

I LOVE TW! uberrrden!
i'll post about it tmr, cos i think my mum's back with my dinner!
gaahhaha :D

i'm in love with 陈乃荣 too :D

2009-12-10T14:28:00.001+08:00

TAIWAN!!!! IN 9 HRS I'LL BE IN THE AIRPORT. IN 11++ HRS I'LL MOST PROB. BE ON THE PLANE. AND IN 15++ HRS I'LL MOST PROB. BE IN TAIWAN ALR :P WHICH MEANS FROM NOW, IN LESS THAN A DAY, I'LL BE IN TAIWAN! HOW FASCINATING :P

actually i dont really feel like going overseas in this point of time but ah wells, it'll be a good chance to relax my mind, body and soul! it's been a long time when i can be carefree and less emo, so i shall grab this opportunity and play my hearts out:D it's been good these days feeling happy and trying not to go sad for no apparent reason... even though unexpected things happen yesterday that still gave me the shivers.. ah wells, shall not talk about that:D

does your parents ever said not to rely and trust your friends completely? to me, at this point of time, i've only got friends. i know that in the future eventually i'll have to depend on myself and i probably wont have any more close friends due to the "dog bite dog" society, so why not let me enjoy this ephemeral fantasy during these times where friends are the ones who understand me as much as our parents, or even more? and dont cha think there are certain things that we cant tell our parents and but can tell our friends? i know, if even relatives cant be relied upon, what are we to say about friends? but i'm only 15 and i guess i have the utmost right to enjoy their company and my reliance on them sometimes, dont i?

and i guess no one can ever understands why i keep so much "rubbish" with me. maybe to you those are rubbish, but to me they are evidence of what ive gone through, what ive enjoyed and what ive hated. attachment is the word. i'm attached to everything i have or i do, even if its just a small piece of paper with my name on it pasted on a stalk of flower given to me. there's no right for anyone to criticise me unless i dont keep them properly. but compare my room to other ppl's room, i think mine's acceptable? maybe one day one of you people will understand me. hah.

my mum's infuriating me now but i'm tolerating it, not even saying anything. what can i do? its just a few more hrs till we board the plane and i'm not letting any animosity exist between us. besides, ive been bottling up lots of feelings these days just so that i can feel happy, so whatever.

i wonder what's got up to me today. i just wanna use my com, read and watch tv. i dont even feel like going overseas, like i just mentioned-.- i think i'm turning into a freak. anyone saving me? oh wait, but no one cares about me, hahaa. i mean, even my closest friends are... ... if they dont even want to make an effort then forget it. they dont want to call me, sms me or read my blog, or for that matter, my chinese blog where i pour out most of my feelings? forget it. i know you guys are gonna screw your face and say youre hurt, but mind you, i'm hurting now too. haha/ kk fine i feel bad, i apologise for my sudden outburst but mind you, i still love you guys:D really! <3

friend, i wanna talk talk ): i was saying it'll be difficult to open me, but you know what, you can if we're on msn. cos i 不擅长 talking, rmb.. :D especially now i feel like talking to you on msn... hahaa, but nvm, at least youre the first person to sms me:D and call me for so long too :D take care dude...

:D

new moon :D

2009-12-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

what defines a good movie?

can anyone give me examples of a good movie? titanic? transformers? white chicks? or what? does a good movie encompass a good plot, good casting, good effects, smooth transitions, good script? wanna focus more on casting now.. umms, lets say there's a new featured movie but the cast looks horrible, no hot guys, no pretty girls, will you be interested to watch it, without looking at the synopsis yet? then when you look at the synopsis and decides to watch the movie, will you complain halfway about how bad the actors look? and if there's a new movie and wow the guys are like hot and the girls are *wolf whistles*, will you be like "eh! wanna watch!"? or will you be more level headed and check out the synopsis first?

and who are we to say the actors dont fit the characters? i believe the production crew takes a long time choosing the cast dont they? just because of our own preferences, we criticise the cast which ruins our mood of watching the nice movie? or just because of our own preferences we go OOH! AHH! throughout the movie and when it ends you go "THAT WAS A NICE MOVIE!" because of the looks?! hypocritical isnt it? we always say looks dont matter, but to a certain extent, it does matter. sort of. i mean, be truthful with yourself mianz!

whenever i watch a movie, at the end i will ask myself if the movie was worth my money, whether it was a good movie, but i can never decide cos what's exactly a good movie? something you'll recommend? maybe the plot's out of the ordinary? maybe the acting is like WHOAA? keeps you on the edge? keeps you laughing nonstop?

to me, watching movies and tv prog seems rather different. for movies, its a one time thing and its sort of like fashion,you gush over them then the next time you think about it you have another "good movie" in mind. for a tv prog, you watch it more regularly and you feel close to the people, you know their jokes, their acting style, their cliche plot... what defines a good tv show? definitely something that can take my mind off the troubles i'm facing, the concerns i have to deal with...and many many more too.

today we watched new moon and was it a GOOD movie?
i have no comments.
but you no what, no one cares.
we just wanna watch a movie, who cares eh.
we just wanna watch tv, who cares eh.
yea yea, the world doesnt care about anything anymore,
taht's why she's dying.

dont take offence...if you feel offended! hahaa.

:D

"a leader must have a brain of compass and a heart of magnet"

2009-12-04T23:01:00.011+08:00

I SURVIVED OBS. ONE WORD TO SUM IT ALL UP: MEMORABLE!

not really gonna jot everything down from day one to five but will touch on the main things we did and my thoughts about them! so... take a drink and read along:D

ENG SOON. our awesome group. KIAH HONG. our awesome instructer. for icebreakers, besides saying the norm like name, school and cca, we also had to state an object that could represent us and of course explain why, i chose SWING cos i can really high at times but could also be rather low, but the main thing is i will try my best to enjoy the process just like how sitting on the swing is fun and all.. which kinda sets my mind on this obs cos i know there will be times when i dont feel good but yeah...at the end when i look back i must feel that this was a total worthwhile camp! my first impression of my group was three letters-O.M.G. firstly there were the rowdy, vulgar guys. secondly there were super super(sometimes, overly) enthu girls. sarah, saira and xiuli were the only ones who are like in ij la so yeah. interested in my grp members? ahaha... they are... wait i'll say all those at the end cos i got smth to write about each of them:D

anyways.. we had this TRUSTFALL game. one person had to stand on the step while the rest will hold on to this tough tarb where the person will fall with face upwards while backfacing the rest of the group. it was a simple game and advocated the importance of having trust in our members. you see, we barely met for hours and all we know are their names and school, so if we dont even have the basic trust, how can we work tgt?! ENG SOON, ARE YOU READY? ENG SOON READY, ENG SOON PULL! I'M FALLING! FALL ON! hahaha! :D we also had belaying practices but i still dont know how to tie the EIGHT FIGURE knot lehs. grah! some of the meals were catered by the canteen but for some of the days we had to cook our own dinner! it was almost the same like what we did in guides but this time we actually cooked rice! cool eh.
tent pitching was sort of a revision for me. EVERY SINGLE DAY we had to pitch tent, then unpitch on the second day... sianz but wells, the tents seemed a little bigger than guides one eh. now i can confidently ssay i can pitch a tent properly! ahhahah.

another main activity of the camp was the SEA EXPEDITION. first we need to have capsizing exercise... using the t-rex method to get back onto the kayak if we capsized. YEP, KAYAK! we are gonna kayak to campsite 2! ahhaa. i partnered sarah and i guess i pissed her off badly on the first time we kayaked cos i was really bad at it.. but the second time where we kayaked to campsite 3 it was a little better i guess? the sea-ex leaders estimated we could only reach in like 6/7/8 hrs but actually we reached in 3 hrs but no one knew so we kept going until we almost reached the causeway-.- BASICALLY, on the first day of kayaking the instructers were guiding and leading us but on the next two days we nominated people to lead us..so yeah! third day of kayaking was from campsite 3 back to 1, and this time sarah was one the leaders(PORT-left) and her batch had like 4 guys 4 girls, where the 4 girls are all IJ-ians(jiayi, shipei, sarah, estelle), AWESOME! the first batch of leaders only had one girl... but she's WENDY(: anyway, we reached way before the estimation to campsite 1 so.. we were fast! hahaa! 3 days of kayaking was like WOOOOSH. it was real tiring but everything seemed totally worthwhile when we see our destination... my first time out in the sea and i must say i enjoyed it! :D

we didnt do much heights cos 3 days were already almost taken up for kayaking(OH DID I SAY PPL ACTUALLY GOT OFF THEIR KAYAK TO PEE/POO?! AHAHA)... i actually wanted to try it out leh, they have some real cool ones:D we only did rock climbing-.- which i'm not scared of but cant do it-.- but i think i improved from sec3 adv camp cos even though i climbed very very low, i held on much much longer! it was real nice when everyone was encouraging every single person who went up and i guess i really wanted to make it up higher... thought the kayaking had let me gain more arm power leh! but yeah, it was cool. but i still wanted to try those that i will be scared of so that i can see whether i can do it! oh yeah, almost forgot, when we decide to stop climbing/reach the top, we had to shout out this commitment we wrote down earlier on.... it was real touching to hear everyone's commitment cos i know that everyone will try their very best to achieve them, like how they scaled the wall. GUESS WHAT MY COMMITMENT WAS HAHAA.

oh, did i say? WE DIDNT BATHE FOR TWO FREAKING DAYS AND I WONDER HOW LONG I DIDNT BRUSH MY TEETH.. MAYBE 3 DAYS?! siao. but i guess it's all about endurance, HA. HA. HA. umms, we also had PT for two mornings where we played some small games tehn did the 5 normal routines: push up, superman(hand under chin kind), crunches, squats(everyone was singing WE WILL ROCK YOU cos we had to slap or thighs two times lols!) and lifting up our heels thingy. omg, how cld i forgot, besides kiah hong, we had two other instructers who were like observing, forgot their names but one comes form phillipines and the other from the himalayas! cool eh.

our last activity before we officially completed the course and get the cert is JETTY JUMPING. killer mianz. we had to stand on the edge of a narrow plank and jump downward into the sea :O i got shipei to help me cos i dont know how to swim and i dont trust that freaking lifevest ahhaha. we had to shout out smth first before jumping so guess what, i shouted I CANT WAIT TO WATCH TEEEEVEEE and jumped ahhaha... shipei's grp's friend whose name i just forgotten help to drag me along too ahahhaa. actually i wasnt scared of the jump but was scared of the sea-.- hahaa.

we also had lots of reflection and debrief times with kiah hong which was both hilarious and well... reflective! we also had to write journal entries to take note of what we did and how we felt! in a way, i like reflection. and then there was this time i thought of smth stupid: when i emo..., i think, i reflect. reflecting is good. so doesnt that mean emo is good? ahahhaha, kk that was daft, scrape that! now..time for my members:D:D

NATHANIEL (affectionately known as NAT or NEHNEH, but that's what mostly his sch friends call him la)
the kindest and most helpful guy in our group:D he's really really nice and active, like a MONKEY ahahah! he was the first guy that shook hands with me-.- no la cos when we just reached and got into our grps the guys went down the group to introduce their names and ask for our names and he shook our hands ahhaa. the good thing is, i can see the leader in him, how he can full of initiative and is willing to do anything to help our group.. hmms. i'm really glad we got him, he got us going mianz!

SYLVESTER
a very very helpful guy too. hurt his back on the 4th day night when he was playing with another guy, lols! he also tries his best to look out for the others:D but he's real funny when he hangs out with the other guys... a little quiet actually..... ehh err.... nvm!

DANIEL
helpful guy too actually hahahha, crap i'm running our of vocab sia! oh yeah, he eats A LOT. A LOT. today's lunch he took a heap of rice which was overflowing the plate can. AND HE FINISHED EVERY GRAIN OF IT. plus saira's chicken wing and another person's extra rice-.- whaseh!

FARIZUL (afffectionately known as ZOO)
the guy who looks like xiuhui!!!! ahhahhaa, really lah! he's damn cool, he did fireball! ahaha, i mean, he took the lighter and did like a small fireball with his fingers, damn cool :P he's very very enthu too but got quite tired on 4th day night ahhah!

AZFAR (spelled correctly?!)
small small guy.... HAHAHAH not so bad lah... he's the one who played with sylvester and hurt his back-.- he was real responsible with the medic bag he was holding on too but yeah... ahahah! he and zoo kayaked tgt and both of them keep "titanic! sinking!" cos their boat had a hell lot of water mianz! damn far--nie!

JUNJIE (affectionately known as JJ or LUM, his surname)
the first guy name i rmbered once he introduced.. when we girls were talking they asked about his name i was like JUNJIE! hahaa, then they were like "WHOA.... LIKE HIM RIGHT.. AHHAA" i was like no lah! cos is like same name as JJ LIN JUN JIE so yeahh can rmb easily mah, ahahha! didnt really get to talk to him much but he helped my refill my bottle once! hahahha! :D

THINESH (affectionately known as BLACK-.- actually not really lah...)
a real real funny guy...when he's with the guys-.- they always make fun of him lorhs. and first one to sms me also-.- say he cannot read my handwriting and needs my email... LOLS! my handwriting is fine lehs!

SAMEUL (affectionately known as SAMSAM or SAMMY)
he started out okay but became ____________... ahahha, but at least he'll help lah! he likes teasing sarah toh with peanut biscuits, no idea why! he's just... weird! and he writes long long journal entries! like novelist sia! ahhaa:D and i thought my reflection was long-.-

YI FAN
nicest girl i guess, like among the rest who werent from our school. hangs out closely with daniel and sylvester..hmms, ahah! always get bullied by them but she gets along perfectly fine! :D

HANNA (i really dont know how to spell, sorry!)\
quiet girl but at times she reminds us of some impt things we might have missed, ahha.

ASHIQIN
really really really cheery and enthu. ahahahaaaa.....

ASYIQIN
small and cute! ahhaaa... she went to doctor on the first day because of her leg condition but came back on the second day! she's quite organised actually, haha!

i wont talk about IJ ones lah huh!

BOYS IN GENERAL
a bunch of helpful guys! in their mixed schs we heard that the guys have to do everything cos if like a girl is seen carrying rubbish to throw in garage the guys will get scolded-.- they really try their best to help us even thou at times they underestimated the girls' strengths-.- they always let us too without much complaints. they're freaking funny too, the way they behave and the things they talk about! but they;re vulgar alrights, most of the times we dont even understand their vulgarities but yeah..ahhaa. i think we do depend on them a little too much... sad.. D:

GIRLS IN GENERAL
i dont have much to say actually. will tell y'all why if you ask me face to face ahhaaa. but its okay lah, aiya..... not everyone is perfect eh.

KIAH HONG
may not be as FUN-y or funny or high-y as the other instructers like chee tong-.- but he's undoubtedly good(: he still looks more like a teachers, his previous profession! the quote up there is what he told us, but i dont think the wordings is correct cos i cnat really rmb:D in some ways i feel like i'm like him, can be real funny at times but may not be as high as the others.. mmm.... nvm!

CARE-BOT
our bestest leader in mind:D FINE, actually we were told to draw a person and by labelling his brains, eyes, ears, heart, limbs so on so forth, we have to jot down what a leader needs, like for brain is like THINKING CLEARLY.. stuff like that? but we drew a robot and a big heart in the center, like carebear, so we named it CARE-BOT! yea! :D

ENG SOON IN GENERAL
may not be the enthu-est group but we do pretty well and the ppl really made me laugh like siao, esp the guys, ahaha! there were times when i'm fedup with the ppl but i guess i have to adapt with different working styles and learn from them too! mmm... we're ok-ok lah, but i expected to work with better girls and have problems with guys.. BUT IT SEEMED LIKE ITS THE OPPOSITE lols:D "ENG SOOOOOON! COMING SOOOOON!" "ENG SOOOOOON! GO HOME SOOOOON!" hehehehhehe:D

OVERALL THOUGHTS.
honestly, i know i didnt really behave like a real leader should cos i actually kept a lot to myself. dont know why but i'm always very quiet and not that initiative-y when i'm out with diff people... there were times when i felt like crying, not because of the tiredness or stuff like taht but mostly because i'm sad that i cant do much and when we were having reflection i would think back and feel disappointed with myself.or when i feel touched when ppl yelled out their commitments or when everyone was encouraging each other either during rock climbing or jetty jumping! k fine, and when we had to say goodbye:D sad but most of the times all i do is complain in my head and like yeahh... quite different form myself when i'm in guides la huh. maybe because i dont really have a close friend with me and i feel a little uncomfortable? i have to learn to be more independent and have more more initiative! and i seriously have to learn how to swim! but i guess i did try my best in everything i did and i guess i can say, i enjoyed OBS... though actually i thought that it would be a little funner... hmms. i feel like having like a leadership camp for guides..ahahaa... i guess maybe if i cant do it well enough, maybe i can pass the skills and mentalities to others and maybe they can do it better? there was one reflection session where we had to jot down what makes us a leader. and i was totally clueless cos i really dont see myself as a good leader.. i might have that potential but yeah. i'm like a blunt pencil, eagerly waiting to be sharpened.

hhmmms. i'll miss the guys, actually. ahahhaa. crazy. lols! but thru out the camp i could temporarily throw off my previous main concerns like studies and guides and basicallly focus on whether we can do everything by time and not lianlei sarah during kayaking hahaa. OH YAH, SARAH, I'M REALLLY REALLLY SORRRY! :D it was quite refreshing for my mind... oh, i'll post photos at a later date.. hee XD omg, and i finally got my dream OBS BLACK SHIRT! yeahooooooooooooo :D wanted to get the white one too actually so tt i could wear to sch but... D:

"there's something about obs that stays with you for life!"

topsyturvy.

2009-11-29T23:21:00.003+08:00

OBS, HERE I COME! WOOOSH...

today was fun! discovery centre was cool! i won at all the "computer" games but failed terribly at the pistol shooting-.- AND I STILL WANNA PLAY THE PAINTBALL ARENA! hahhaha.. kk, i realise i start very abruptly and funnily and weird...

dont feel like writing much actually.... cos wanna post in chinese hahhahaa. OMG I SO CHEENA. no no no lah.... i'm just loving my roots <3 EWW. i cant believe i just said that. SCRAP THAT SIA.

i think i will enjoy obs eh? ahahhaa. as long as i dont get bitten by sand flies or get heart attack from high elements-.- lols!

oh, swee, cant put this up on the 1st so shall put it up now...

HAPPY HAPPY SUPER EARLY BIRTHDAY KOWBOY JOHNNY! :D

:D

陈乃荣,武虎将&东城卫!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-28T09:03:00.010+08:00

fig 1: 修 and his brother 戒 play fantastic fantastic electric guitar!!!! (the two guys on far left and right respectively

fig 2: 寺唯宏正 doesnt look shuai here, BUT HE IS omgomgomg! (guy on far left)

fig 3: he's super good in piano. i think. :D looks like zhang dong liang here horh!

fig 4: 陈乃荣!!! didnt look nice in zhongjisanguo cos of his hair... but he looks ok yeah? :D
曹会长!!!!!!!!!! <3

another video of sun zi you gone ):

2009-11-25T23:00:00.006+08:00

OMG WE WON SECOND hahahahahhaha!

not bad right, for a group who got notified of the competition on the day before the real thing! the whole time i was complaining that i could have been in pizzahut meeting the PLs but i had to get stuck in the science lab! singapore poly was impressive on first sight, but upon "closer examination" was less appealing.. but the school is BIG. and i love alllll the labs and the cool cool tensile machine! like what mr halim said, "labyrinth" sia! haha, talking about mr halim reminds me of his brother, suria, we saw whom qistina, hanisah and i greatly wanted swee ying to "get him"..... cos mr halim was like "he's single. you want phone number?" haahahha! BOTH OF THEM LOOK ALIKE. only difference is the hair okayy!

thought today would be bad, but it turned out pretty well. our grp was like the calmest and still-lest. had lots lots lots of laughter together, like MR FLUSTERED and MR COOL/ MR HEADPHONE, MR LONG-HAIR, MR EFRO and ETHANOL GUY:D inside joke inside joke!!!!! if youre interested in their nicknames, ask me mianz! but yeah, even thought we thought first prize was laptop, second prize nitendo wii and third prize ipod nano, WE WERE TOTALLY WRONG cos we just got some other thing that was nothing close to all those, lols! oh, elizabeth's group got first! AWESOME JUNIOR! omg we lost to sec ones-.- hahahhaa.... paiseh sia!

from the day mrs tay "cheated" sweeying and me to join this competition, working with new friends hanisah and qistina, going to school to experiment on paper making in a very very noisy environment(:O) to getting into the finals and got second, it was all in all a very very good experience! what really mattered this time wasnt the reward cos we totally didnt expect it (even though i predicted it!) but was the whole whole process, the friends we made and the laughter we all had! it feels good ya know..... it's just so different from all the various projects i had with much closer friends.... hmms! you know what, i'll probably miss papermaking.. and miss mr halim... KIDDING KIDDING KIDDING. but.. first guy teacher that worked with us so closely... and he still owes us a macdonald treat((: NVM, IF SWEE GETS HIS BROTHER.... HMMMS!!!!! hahahhaa, swee's gonna kill me!!!!!!!

heard the plc meeting without me went well. first time we arranged to meet outside of school not at someone's hse but at PIZZAHUT and i had to miss it....sianz! but i rmbered at the end of today i was telling my group "maybe coming here was eventually better than going pizzahut." hahaaa. but yeah, plc: not bad not bad ah! now i know y'all can actually do without me.. so i shld stop being so #%$#%$*)*)*(%$)*_ cos i know eventually y'all be okayy! not to say last time i always thought must have me then can la.... it's just...... yeahhhh..... ya know? :D sometimes, y'all impress me you know? ahhahhaa.

whoa, my longest eng post since like dono when mainz! eh did i tell you, during bonding camp we watched step up 2! ahhahaa, the storyline was okayokay but it was the dance and music that brought the whole movie up to a whole new level! CHERYL, NOT THE ABS LA HUH! :D i loveeee MOOSE, he's so cute.... cute in the way he talks and behaves, ahhahah! but if the storyline was a little better and less cliche, it would have been better!!!!

the whole day today i was addicted to HEAVEN CAN WAIT cos ytd's commercial for spore idol was featuring this song. but when we first reached SP and got into their lecture hall swee said smth about "enemy" so i was like "do you know your enemy, do you know the enemy, do you knwo your enemy wa hey!" ahhaa...nice reminder of bonding camp's DONT FORGET THE LYRICS eh eh eh! lolsss!

jesse mccartney sounds good:D
never realise so many songs i know come from him.
hahahha... :D

TEAM WON ROCKS! (get the pun?!)

one question, why do so many people change when they found their other half? recently so many people around me.... lolz.

:D

grah, my video's gonna disappear):

2009-11-24T19:38:00.002+08:00

BONDING CAMP 09 IS OVERRRR!

guess it was quite ok, even though at some parts i got really pissed, lols! like wht cheryl, nat, amanda said, they could feel the "anger flowing out" of me.... LOLS! but yeah, in terms of within the coy and within the plc itself, i think i see some improvement... LOLS!
and thru this camp everyone now knows i like purple-.-

and guess what, we got into finals for papermaking competition-.- and it's like wht, tmr! siao....
i'm supposed to have some mtng tmr-.-

GRAH. confused.

:D

i quit i quit i quit!

2009-11-20T08:20:00.003+08:00

SEC 4 FAREWELL 2009 WAS SUCCESSFUL.
who cares about the small hitches here and there mianz.
IT TURNED OUT BETTER THAN I THOUGHT,
and that's what matters :D

next up will be bonding camp and orientation.
hopefully those will be okay too:D
what we need is cooperation.
HAHAHHAA.

dont feel like posting another post after this cos then my sun zi you's video will be gone from the page): UGH.

5 more min before i set off to school D:
SIANZ.

bendable, unbreakable.

2009-11-18T17:41:00.003+08:00

"open up to me. love will set you free.if ever you believed ,then please believe in me"
- backstreet boys-this is us.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
FAREWELL IS TOMORROW.
AND EVERYTHING IS SCREWED.
kk lahh.... not everything lah.
hahhahah!
WE CAN DE. I KNOW. HMMS. :D

you know wht, i just thought of something..
umms,
if life is unfair (like wht they always say),
then why not be fair to yourself and to those around you,
and maybe you'll be less miserable.
mm? :D

and if love is blind (like wht they always say),
then why not love everyone around you,
and most importantly love yourself,
since it's blind and you technically cant see the faults.
mm? :D

and if friends are forever(like wht they always say),
then why not be a good friend yourself
and not complain when others are not behaving like what friends should behave
because you'll set e example and help them along
mm? :D

RANDOM. BUT. COOL.
in my way.

:D

desperate.

2009-11-15T14:38:00.004+08:00

the busiest two weeks are finally OVER.
next up will gonna be only guides...and more guides... but better than going to school every single day right! did i tell you, have been reading nice nice books currently((: maybe i shld get started reading those cheem cheem books....ONE DAY LA HUH.

every person in this world is different. different people look different, sound different and most importantly, thinks differently and leaves different impressions on others. so.. how do you think? why did you leave me with such an impression? you have every right to be different, to be... "out of the ordinary"... but why not at least tell me how you think so that i can attempt to think like you and understand your behaviour when i dont? the first impression may be how you look... but it'll definitely not be the lasting impression. to me, the lasting impression will be whether you had shown your bare heart to me and the relationship that we have between us is both memorable and true to the heart. it's impossible to find a perfect friend, but i guess its not difficult to find a friend you can relate to, go crazy together but also cry and comfort one another at times... and i thought i had find you. and why cant you just understand and accept that i want to think differently at times..why must you encourage me to give up that thought and think like the "rest of them"? i always..always thought you'll be the only one who will understand me.. but... i'm starting to have doubts. we have not seen each other for almost a week..but i'm really sad to say, i dont miss you as much as i thought i would have.

lols. i started writing that para above thinking about person A. but when i reached the end i seem to start writing about person B. so tt probably means i have doubts about the both of them. sad.

[edit] [/edit]

:D

seek the truth.

2009-11-12T13:41:00.002+08:00

came back from school and sony ericsson shop sad sad today cos my msges are gonna be gone again... managed to save some onto SIM card....dono whether it'll work though):
then i came online and immediately hillary talked to me and she made me happy happy again(:
apparently some cath high teacher gave out the ans for chi o's and i'm pretty satisfied with my marks(: okay fine, VERY SATISFIED. provided the ans the teacher provided are correct luh-.-

NO PHONE FOR ONE WEEK. TELL ME HOW TO SURVIVE.

omg. today will be possibly our last mtng for the papermaking thingy UNLESS WE GET INTO THE SECOND ROUND. lols.... borrowed TKAM movie today:D:D:D

anyways... without my phone i'll tend to think a lot. think too much. then i'll go sad and emo again, HOW SAD! come to think about it....hmmms. nvm....

:D

i cant believe i opened up to you.

2009-11-10T21:24:00.001+08:00

1234- Plain White T's

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

NIA IS SO FAR--NIEEE!

2009-11-09T19:52:00.001+08:00

OMG O LVLS IS TOMORROW.
AND WHAT AM I DOING?!
LOLS.

laughed my heads off ytd when i was watching on teevee!
ahh i lovee him(:

happy belated birthday pamela yeh qi ming(:

2009-11-08T20:09:00.003+08:00

yesterday was a blast!!
kk lahh... might not be as good as last year but still..
:D
HOPE YOU LIKED IT(:

these days have been...i dont know...
out of schedule. out of "wht-i-wanna-do". out of feelings(make sense?).
if only everything could fall into place.
i always say process is much impt than the result, but sometimes if the results are unsatisfying then one cld easily overlook the process which would have been much fulfilling... i'm trying very hard to focus on process but i cant ignore the results right? AIYA. I LIKE TALKING CRAP. HAVE BEEN BLOGGING TOO MUCH ON CHINESE BLOG NOW CANNOT EXPRESS MYSELF IN ENG :O

o lvls on tues and i dont even know if i can do it.
i mean, EVERYONE'S IS HOLIDAY MOOD even though it doesnt seems like it's holiday WITH ME GOING BACK TO SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY OF THE WEEK EXCEPT SUNDAY. hahahs!

feel like blogging in chinese again, ciaos!

missing him(:

:D

WHY.

2009-11-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is gonna be exciting(:
just pray tt it wont rain!
these few days have been real real hectic!!
just want nov to be overrrr!

wna watch movie now..byees(:

when nth feels right, you wonder if you yourself have gone wrong...

2009-11-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

didnt want to post these few days cos my 孙自佑's face will be gone..but swee suggested smth and there he is in my profile! muahahhaa. mon had guides, today had science proj thingy and tmr got guides. HOW WONDERFUL, no?

this was wht i wrote during guides ytd, doesnt make much sense but it explains a lot... to me at least...(edited a bit thou...)

"it feels so different. i'm like with them but i'm not. everyone looks at me like i'm alien or smth. you mean the two and a half years i spent with them amounts to nothing at the end? i'm even hesitating to ask them stuff...probably even those not relating to IT. once we're so close, they looked up to me, now? oh, she looked at me, without a smile and she turned away, just like that! it was nvr like this. last time she would help me to get things done, but now she's not even joining. ok, she is contributing quite a lot but it's so different. i look at them, every single face, and... i just felt like crying. maybe if i had remained as before, i wont be in such agony. but what would i be sacrificing then? the chance to prove myself? the chance to be what i had hoped to be? i mean, why are we so distant now? i rmbered that time when there were only 3 of us, we were... more than just members from the same group. and when all of us were tgt, we were... happy? even if i attempt to talk to them now, it feels so different and awkward.. WHY?"

then when i went back home ytd i had some discussion and wells, i feel much better.. thanks, dude(:

THIS WEEK'S PACKED AND TIRING.. BUT IT'LL BE EXITING((:

:D

开始为明年冲刺吧...

2009-10-30T16:35:00.001+08:00

ugly position.
ugly percentage.
freak my sa2.

NEXT WEEK IS PACKED.
MANZZ..

we love music(: we love guitar(: dont we!

2009-10-28T20:36:00.004+08:00

once i post this, the one where i wrote it wld be my last time posting due to exams will be gone! how farrr-niee! :D just feel like saying smth:

if you find me unreasonable, tell me.
but if you think i scold for a reason, bear with me.
i'm actually a very nice person.
just dont piss me off.

anyways.... these two days were cool! have been having lots of free time in class and our class is like broken up into "music appreciation grp", "c'mon let's play grp", "let's sleep grp", "let's read grp" etc etc! so of course i fell into music appreciation grp cos my swee playing guitarrrr mahh! very de cool and i observing swee how to play guitar and or course singing! pity the others cos i cant sing for nuts, which is a sad thing cos all my girl cousins all in choir-.- will learn it(guitar, not singing, dude!) officially soon i guess. yea swee? hahahas! but going to sch is so useless now... teachers dont even come to go thru papers or smth ): ahh wells!

Kelly Clarkson-Breakaway
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

PS.if only ppl take things more seriously...
:D

flunked.

2009-10-26T17:52:00.003+08:00

I AM SO DEAD.
first time in my whole entire life.
it's wierd ya know.
everyone always think i very smart very hardworking...
then if i tell them i didnt do well or stuff like that they choose not to believe but instead joke about my "good" or "bad" standards..
but havent you ever thought if whatever i said was true and i really didnt do well?
like this time.
it's like my first EOY for sec3s (not like i wld have 2 lahh) and it's so freaking ugly.

its funny ya know.
how i dont really feel that sad or like want to cry..
but i still am disappointed and i still cant believe it.
no one can believe it i think.
if i tell you, you probably think it was a joke.
which how much i hope it wld be.
i seriously cannot believe it.
not even pam, not even averil, not even tata, not even nat!
HAH!

do i not work hard enough?
i dono leh.
i need help.
but i dono wht i need help in.
cos i understand everything but...

maybe i wld cry ltr.
when i tell my mum and she scolds me.
hahaha.
hopefully she doesnt but still.
anyway i cry almost everyday=.=

NOTHING IS GONNA STOP ME FROM SCORING WELL NEXT YEAR.
NOTHING.
I MEAN IT.

my worst sa2 results everrrrr.

2009-10-23T17:55:00.002+08:00

i'm freaking disappointed.
i expected it but still i'm sad.
cos even if last time i expected it to be bad it turns out okayy.
but now it turned out very very ugly.

we checked everything except sciences, wow.
but none of them were good.
improvements?
chinese....lit...tt's about all?
wow.

HOW?!

:D

控制欲

2009-10-22T18:41:00.004+08:00

i had a fun day today(:
i met lots of ppl too(:
as in.... friends(:

in conclusion, i had a fun day today(:
despite the suntan/sunburn(:
despite choosing the wrong direction and got totally totally cheated(:

but...i had a fun day today(:
and the reason why i dont elaborate is firstly, y'all wld be jealous(:
secondly, some ppl might be angry(:
thirdly, why must i(:

aiyohh, i had fun luhhhhh! (:
thanks(:

scary but cool! (:

yay!

OH NOO. I'M GONNA NEED TONS OF TISSUE TMR.

:D

i love 浩角翔起 too((:

2009-10-21T13:14:00.003+08:00

once i post this, one of my favourite post will be gone):
ah wells.

these days have been crazy. so crazy until i fell sick-.- lols, pam was saying i study until i sick... sure sure i hope so ah. then maybe i wldnt need to book an air tkt to new york on friday so that i will prevent myself from having a heart attack after seeing my scripts. heh.

everyone all busy studying or playing lorh, no one tagging):
ahahha, nvm luhh, 我写这些又不是想张扬什么,没人读也....也罢.
can understand uhh.
i can imagine SOMEONE screaming, SPEAK ENGLISH! I CANT UNDERSTAND!
ahhahaha, and then i can imagine THAT SOMEONE's nose got white fumes spewing out, then she click on my tagboard and type in some stuff.

PROVIDED THAT SHE KNOWS I'M TALKING ABOUT HER. UNLESS SHE'S TOO slowwww!
that's a huge big hint gahh!

ytd was watching tv and one person said smth like this: 如果你做头的都垂头丧气, 那他们怎能振作起来? which made me think a lot a lot. people always follow an example, but if that example is bad...what wld tt mean? hmm. 而我做头的....到底是怎样的呢? :D

aiyohhh why i use so much chinese today-.-
y'all dont mind ahh.

i love them too :D:D:D

:D

我爱孙自佑((:

2009-10-19T18:51:00.003+08:00

i loveee ytd's xing guang da dao's episode, the theme was 剧中唱...

very cool(:

i only just found out sun zi you is champion(:

spore only gonna show top 6 championship epi next week(:

AHH. I LOVE HIM :D

i walked in with my heart beating against my chest like it's dying to go out. the smell of medicine was enough to suffocate me. as i wait for my number, i sat in a daze, thinking of nothing. no one to sms to, no one to comfort me. my mum leaves me sometimes to talk to my dad outside. BEEP. it's my turn. i managed to smile and opened the door. it's not more of whether i'm scared of the results, but more of i wldnt be able to go to obs... funny huh. tests after tests, everything proved okayy. there was a funny doc, a cute cute shuai shuai one and another pretty nurse. which made me wonder, if there's a doctor who is higly skilled but yet does not look that nice, what will be the patients' reactions? by the time i walked out, i was a happy little girl, cos i can go obs even though there might be a little little harmless problem in my body... hahas.(:

actually he's not tt shuai, as compared to 李杰宇or 杨骏文... but he has that 魅力 you know you know :D:D:D nvm... i know can liaox.

:D

视代相传,声声不息-台湾金钟奖2009

2009-10-18T11:11:00.006+08:00

"it's always easier to say than to do, but i wantto try it out and do it. we're gonna die, but why dont we try it first?" :D

reasons why i didnt post right after end of exams:
1) reading my book!
2) watching my tv!
3) sleeping!

HAHA. yeaa. it doesnt even feel like the end of exams. everything i've learnt is still in my head, cos i didnt even use them in my exams, cos the qns are totally 'out of the mind"! hehee. whatever, i'm so not gonna score well but yahh, bot the end of the world right. haha. sureee.

now it's back to guides and our cip. didnt even want to start thinking about them but ah wells. it's nice thinking about them though, feel a better sense of security then thinking abotu my results right. ahhaa. cant wait for all the work to start suffocating me(:

once i post this, my birthday post will be gone):

very long nvr do this le:
下一站.幸福! - new show(:
桃花小妹! - new show(:
痞子英雄! - not new show, always wanted to watch it, even more eager to watch it after ytd's golden bell awards(:
感官世界! - lin you jia's new album(:
梦·想·家! - pan yu wen's new album (:
景行厅男孩! - who cares if theyre old, i love them(:

看东看西,看运气
看南看北,看灵气!

:D

"谁叫我们是朋友!!!"

2009-10-08T15:33:00.004+08:00

this will really really really be my last post until exams are over. unless i need to come on the com to research some stuff. I THINK. lols (:

so here we go. ten months of hard work. ten months of studying. ten months of fooling around and not getting things done. ten months of problems. everything had happened because of tomorrow, because of next week, the BIG time of our lives. i sound like i'm taking o lvls but i guess all exams, big or small, government or school, are all the same, aint them?

i dont know how well i'll do, i dont know if i'll be surprised or disppointed. but all i know now is that i have to try before getting those answers eh. for the first time in my life, i'm very very uncertain of my capabilities, so no matter what i end up with, i will be satisfied, i will not complain, and i will start off fresh and new next year, or rather after the exams! i dont aim for anything, i onyl aim for improvement. is that too much?

and as i look forward to the day when i can go home and bathe and plonk onto my bed immediately with my book in my hands, wish me luck and i'll do my best! :D

"有朋友,真好.
有你,真好."

:D

如果有如果(:

2009-10-05T17:22:00.005+08:00

mole test wld have been more manageable if there was more time, BUT I WILL NOT COMPLAIN. mm(:

eh, sandwiched between you ppl is enough to suffocate me to death. every single day, i have to observe and look if there's anything wrong between you all, whether there are things one is not happy about because of what the other(s) did. i dont understand why you ppl kick up such a big fuss over such things, but it does make me realise what is 旁观者清. i hate to be the mediator, and i dont know how to be one. i only know how to tell the problems to someone else hoping that she wld help me. i dont understand, why nowadays your heart capacity is so freaking small, you have to get angry over such "inni mahcam" things. then when you patch things up, do anyone remember to thank me? or the person why advice me on what to do? no.... you go about laughing and talking like i wasnt there. talk about appreciation. heck.

but, you know what, i'm frustrated, because i love you <3 and i dont want any of this to happen(:

好怀念哦!!

笨小孩-刘德华
哦...宁静的小村外有一个笨小孩
出生在陆零年代
十来岁到城市不怕那太阳
努力在柒零年代
发现呀城市里朋友们不用去灌溉
花自然会开

哦...转眼间那么快这一个笨小孩
又到了捌零年代
三十岁到头来不算好也不坏
经过了玖零年代
最无奈他自己总是会慢人家一拍
没有钱在那口袋

哎哟往著胸口拍一拍呀勇敢站起来
不用心情太坏
哎哟向著天空拜一拜呀别想不开
老天自有安排

哦...他们说城市里男不坏女不爱
怎么想也不明白
妈妈说真心爱会爱得很精彩
结果我没有女孩
笨小孩依然是坚强得像石头一块
只是晚上寂寞难耐

哎哟往著胸口拍一拍呀勇敢站起来
管它上天下海
哎哟向著天空拜一拜呀别想不开
老天自有安排
老天爱笨小孩

:D

"可惜这个世界上没有如果"

2009-10-03T10:17:00.004+08:00

almost forgot, 中秋节快乐!!!!

i thought i was gonna fall sick last night. but now my throat is still annoying me, grahs. ):

anyways! did i mention? glad i passed my qa, even though it wasnt a great mark! glad i did okay-okay frm my chinese prelims too, though havent receive essay back yet! and glad i did ok-ok for eng oral too(: next up wld be mole test :O:O which i'm gonna die. oh yeah, speaking about mole, ytd's titration practical test was :O lols.

i finally decided to stop reading my books in case i get too carried away, so currently reading the 圣婴文采(: but basically i only left the book i borrowed form sherwynn(:

guess what? exam is ending in 13 days and school is ending in 27 days! yay for the first one, awww for the latter(: see, must count when exam is ending and not countdown to when it's starting, which will be more depressing(:

just to let you know, i'm just taking a break.
A SHORT ONE.
I PROMISE

Colbie Caillat -Falling For You

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

ps. eh babes, go to our blog! i think you know who you are lahh!
:D

trembling.

2009-10-02T00:02:00.007+08:00

i hugged my knees close to my chest. my knuckles had turned to a deathly white. my shirt sticked to my body. i was looking down, occasionally tentatively poking my head out, looking left to right, then shrunk back again, like a tortoise. tears, sweat or mucus-i dont know which, dirtied my face, and finally i couldn't take it anymore, and i screamed.

it's so easy to just say, "dont take things so seriously! there's always failure and success in life, without them you'll nvr make it far! persist when you meet an obstacle, go on when you are successful." but what happens when the obstacle is yourself, and not an extra challenge imposed to you by others? what happens when you're the one causing yourself so much misery cos because you cant do a simple thing? you know how weird it is-you wont blame yourself for doing smth you cant, but you'll blame yourself for not doing smth you can.

every decision has a consequence. every failure comes with success. every frown comes with a smile. but.. i'm scared. really scared. i just want this to be over, and start again anew. brand new. with a fresh mind, and hopefully a more determined one.

sos, anyone?

"Imagine what it would be like to discover you aren't the person you thought you were.

That's what happened to Bobby Pendragon. He was living the life of a normal 14 year old guy, until his Uncle Press came by one night to say: "I need your help." From that moment on, nothing was the same. He and his uncle were swept off on a series of adventures that would take them through both time and space. Their mission? To protect the territories of Halla from a demon named Saint Dane, a cold-blooded villian who wants nothing less than the destruction of all humanity. The only force standing in Saint Dane's way is a mysterious group of people called...Travelers.

Bobby is surprised to discover that he is a Traveler. He has no choice but to band together with the others in their battle against Saint Dane, wherever and whenever it takes them. Trouble is, Bobby would much rather be home playing basketball. But that wasn't meant to be, because when he left home, his entire family vanished without a trace!

Each of the Pendragon books follows a unique adventure as Bobby and the Travelers shoot across the universe in pursuit of Saint Dane. They must match wits with this fiend while doing their best to unravel his wicked plans. But Bobby is also driven by the ultimate mystery: Why was he chosen to become a Traveler? And more important.... What happened to his family?

The amazing truth unravels slowly for Bobby over the course of all the Pendragon books. Along the way, he encounters the kind of nail-biting, hairy adventures that he used to love to watch in the movies, but now must live out every day for real. "
-http://www.thependragonadventure.com/pendragon-series.html

ten books. a journey over 5 years(as in in the bk). and it all came to an end today. from denduron, to cloral, first earth, veelox, eelong, zadaa, quillian, ibara, second earth and finally third earth. i travelled with the travelers: alder, spader, gunny, aja killian, kasha, seegan, loor, osa, nerva, elli, siry, uncle press, and of course bobby. i felt like their acolytes: , wu yenza, dodger, courtney, mark, jay, evangeline, boon, saangi.
i just cant believe they returned to solara and made this journey through time and territories end. there are three "before the war" books, but i know they'll nvr be the same, and god knows when they'll come to spore. hell, i will even miss saint dane and his dados and ravinians and even the quigs! every single story and journal(37 of them) are being flumed away, alone with the sweet musical notes in the flume found in the gate marked with the big star! goodbye!

:D

mole mole mole.

2009-09-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

why doesnt it feel like EOYS is just next week, like friday?

strange, no?

:D

trust.

2009-09-29T00:09:00.006+08:00

they say, secondary school friends last forever, i really do hope so.

i dont know how to say this, but thank you for sharing with me, thank you for calling me, thank you for acknowledging my presence. i always feel very bad because i dont have that much to share, but thank you for putting your trust in me and opening up to me. even though i may not be able to make you feel better, but someone told me before, a listening ear is already enough. is it?

i dont know how to say this, but i love you(:

i dont know how to say this, but thank you for trusting me, telling me things that you trust i wont tell anyone. thank you for calling me so very often even though we see each other every day, you nvr know how much that means to me. you always want me to share, and i always thought i shared enough, but apparently not? i tell you a secret, i never know how to share, with me being the only child, with me only learning how to say "thank you", "i love you", "please" , "sorry", when i stepped into the grounds of primary school.i'm sorry.

i dont know how to say this, but i love you(:

i dont understand why you have to pretend you're happy and super hyper when actually you're feeling depressed and sad? i mean, you dont need to share with me or whatsoever, but you're just like a bomb, your friends, including i, never knew if we pulled the trigger, cos youre always smiling. what actually goes into your mind/heart, we dont know. yes, it might seem very mature of you, but it is a real big burden on the ppl around you. YOU, yes i'm talking about you, open up to me wont you? just like wht others did to me.. you wna try? cos i really wanna know what youre thinking.

because, i still love you(:

i'm sure you'll know i'm talking about you. if you do, go my chinese blog yeah? (:

dont ask me why the sudden thoughts.
感触良多吧.

杨丞琳 - 冷战
你把我当成石膏再不跟我吵是不是一种预告
假装都看不到不再重要我不会再跟你闹
无言是一种毒药更像一把刀解开我们的拥抱
到底爱剩多少需要思考承诺随爱蒸发掉
不想再当配角安静让我动摇我想逃跑
我听到你冷战的心跳两败俱伤的记号闪躲不了
我知道莫名其妙求饶也不会是解药不如弃权走掉
面对冷的空气冷的场面冷到昏迷难道我真的快窒息
冷战到何时能平息放我离去
就让回忆停止呼吸沉迷

thank you hillary and joey and tristina for the presents!!!!

:D

it lies in the genes XP

2009-09-27T00:08:00.002+08:00

to continue with my list..

thank you for your presents:
eunice lee(:
bernie(:

how can you two buy almost the same things! ahahas.

you know what i realised, no one gave my barney! ahhas. sad):

today's mtng was productive! even though we didnt manage to finish discussing everything we're supposed to):

kk, gotta send stuff and i'm like missing RED DRAGON which is on tv now):

:D

fabulous, flirtatious fifteen! ((:

2009-09-24T22:13:00.004+08:00

you know how much i love you guys!

THANKS FOR YOUR PRESENTS!
rachael
bao yi
chin yen
charis&yong qi
ada
cheryl lee
tata
sharon
camille
sarah
nat tong
rui ying
chien(:
pam(:
swee(:

THANKS FOR YOUR MESSAGES!
p.s. if y'all didnt know what happened to them, every single one of them was pasted to get a scrapbook thingy!
sherwynn
dorothy
cynthia
wanying
sanzen
beatrice
xiuhui(:
mavis
joycelyn
amanda ng
sarah
laura e.
eunice lee(:
joey(:
weijing
choon khee
julvian
tristina(:
ashleigh(:
julia
rochelle
bernadette(:
grace neo
cheryl tan
florence
grace adam
nat tong
desiree
shi ting
cherly lee
rosalia
shipei
yun lu
novitria
rui ying
stephanie
nicole law
irene
bao yi
tung(:
elsa
netta
tata
chin yen
sheila
gaby
fefe
odelia
grace christina
kelly
shermain
marianne
marian
jasmine
nia
daryl
averil
sheryl
felika
mrs tang(:
sharon
ping en
roshini
swee(:
chien(:
pam(:

THANKS FOR YOUR FB WISHES!
kowboy johnny(:
shi ting
roshini
camille
bao yi
felika
hani(:
xiuhui(:
jessie(:
ming hui(:
cheryl tan
sabrina T.(:
wanyu(:
huiyan(:
qarissa(:
cynthia
chloe b. (:
wanying

THANK YOU FOR THE 12 MIDNIGHT SMS-ES! (in order!)
gwen(:
tata
pam(:
chien(:
baoyi
swee ying(:
netta
charis (actually hers was this morning..)

THANKS TO THOSE WHO SIMPLY WISHED ME OR HUGGED ME
valerie
natasha
neha

AND THE BIGGEST FATTEST WIDEST LONGEST THANKS TO

pamela yeh!
lee chien wen!
pon swee ying!

if i missed out anyone, slap me! hehes(:

-more coming up i guess!-

周杰倫-甜甜的
我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我
還在回味你給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嘗一口　這香濃的誘惑
我喜歡的樣子你都有

你愛過頭竟然答應我
要給我蜂蜜口味的生活
加一顆奶球我攪拌害羞
將甜度調高後再牽手
你的愛太多想隨身帶走
想你的時候就吃上一口
我溫熱著被呵護的感受
卻又擔心降溫了要求

我嘗著你話裏面的奶油溜啊溜
聽過的每句話都很可口呦啊呦
那些多餘的畫面全被跳過
你的眼中只有我

我輕輕的嘗一口你說的愛我
還在回味你給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嘗一口　這香濃的誘惑
我喜歡的樣子你都有

我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我
捨不得吃會微笑的糖果
我輕輕的嘗一口　份量雖然不多
卻將你的愛完全吸收

我微笑著讓香味停留
緣份走到這也賴著不走
像夾心餅乾中間有甜頭
繼續下去不需要理由

我輕輕的嘗一口　你說的愛我
還在回味你給過的溫柔
我輕輕的嘗一口　味道香濃的說
我喜歡的樣子你都有

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHERMAINE AND MICHELLE(sec 1) TOO!

:D

why am i not surprised.

2009-09-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE DAY.
but somehow it feels different. it feels unlike last year. maybe because it doesnt fall on a exam week but falls on the period where i'm at a total confusion. ahhas.

BUT ANYWAYS, chem QA test ytd was a little horrible. and i choose to blame the qns for not stating whether the white ppt will dissolve in excess, making me very very confused. gahahhaa. i dont know what would happen for next week MOLE and practical on titration(mock spa test).. hahaa((:

this is call being suddenly addicted to radio. and an english channel somemore.

Owl City-Fireflies
You would not believe your eyes,
If ten million fireflies.
Lit up the world as I fell asleep.
'Cause they fill the open air,
And leave teardrops everywhere.
You think me rude,
But I would just stand and stare.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems.

'Cause I get a thousand hugs,
From ten thousand lightning bugs.
As they try to teach me how to dance,
A foxtrot above my head,
A sockhop beneath my bed.
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

Leave my door open just a crack (please take me away from here),
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac (please take me away from here).
Why do I tire of counting sheep? (please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep.

To ten million fireflies,
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes.
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell),
But I know where several are.
If my dreams get real bizarre,
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar.

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep).

I'd like to make myself believe,
That Planet Earth turns slowly.
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams.

Backstreet Boys- Straight through my heart
In the heart
Of the night
When it's dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor
Ohhhh Ohhhhh

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I'm spinning around
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in my ear
Like I missed you
want you tonight

Chorus:
Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down(my heart)
Soldier down(my heart)

Thought I moved
More than on
Thought I could
Fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone
Ohhhh ohhhh

Hear the sound
Of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't
Ignore this feeling
Said she misses me
And she wants me
Wants me tonight

Chorus

In the heart
Of the night
When its dark
In the lights
I heard the loudest noise
A gunshot on the floor

We the Kings- Heaven can Wait
Here's a song for the nights
I think too much and
Here's a song when I imagine us together
Here's a song for when we talk too much
And I forget my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay, forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song for the one who stole my heart
And ran so far that cupid couldn't catch her
Here's a song for the kid who aims so high
He shot her down

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song for the nights I drink too much
And spill my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and I
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay forever
'Cause heaven can wait

'Cause heaven can wait
'Cause heaven can wait

:D

is there a line separating "nerd" and "hardworking" ? :D

2009-09-21T08:38:00.003+08:00

what happens to a dream deferred?
does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
or fester like a sore-
and then run?
does it stink like rotten meat
or crust and sugar over-
like a syrupy sweet?

maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.

or does it explode?

-Langston Hughes

samurai girl last epi ytd): ):
loved it <3

i woke up today with the song "gotta go my own way" in my head, means anything?
ahhaha.
it was wierd okayy..
oh yeah, i almost forogt:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATA!

Simple Plan- I can wait forever
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

HSM-What I've been looking for
It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

This feelings like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for

So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Don't have to say a word

For so long I was lost
So good to be found

I'm loving having you around

This feeling's like no other

I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
what I've ben looking for

Doo Doo DooDoo
Doo Doo DooDoo
Do Do

Woa-ah-ah-oh

HSM- When there was me and you
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

:D

the peultimate pendragon((:

2009-09-20T08:59:00.002+08:00

"a difficult goal to reach doesnt mean it's impossible to reach right?" -me

"dreams, hopes and wishes dont come true, YOU make them come true" -the adventures of sharkboy and lavagirl

"if you want to belong in the group you will succumb, but it means giving up your identity to be an anonymous digit in a larger group. be the one that you want to be even if it means being an outcast" -straits times

"不是固执,是坚持" - forgotten frm where

"快乐不是因为拥有的多,而是计较的少" -from a sheet of paper(:

i wonder what happened to me since i dont know when.
but i dont care.
i'm gonna be happy.
like always.
cos it's just so not me when i become emo or sad.
HAH.

:D

you belong with meeee(:

2009-09-18T22:59:00.001+08:00

I AM WEARING MY NEW SPECS NOW... ((:

i love boys like girls new album:D

a goal that is difficult to reach doesnt mean it's impossible to reach! (:

2009-09-17T19:32:00.003+08:00

i remembered vaguely i wanted to post about smth, but i forgot. aww.

EXACTLY ONE MORE WEEK!
actually i dont really want it to come...
lols.

CHINESE PAPER 1 PRELIMS TMR.
wish me luck.

oh gosh i rmbered what i wanted to write:

"YOU KNOW WHAT, I GIVE UP ON MY CHINESE."
ohh really? kai li, are you sure?
):

do i really want to give up on my chinese. you think leh?

Two is better than one-Boys Like Girls feat. Taylor Swift.
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

:D

dots...

2009-09-15T21:09:00.006+08:00

once i post this, gone will be the post where i posted the long long journey where we were semi-lost going to st john's hq on the first day.. and gone will be all the fun fun fun i had for the past 8 mths. hello to hard work and choinging. enjoyment, i'll see you soon! (:

this might be my last post till exams overr?
i'll probably still post randomly ba, esp on you-know-what-day and the holidays yeah yeah:D
sighs. i feel like doing all my exams now, even if they're all on one day. lols.

just a small update, that day i returned my books and came back with...
storm:the death web(5th book)
ten days to zero (1st bk of the series)
pendragon bk 9
pendragon bk 10!

normally i'll read my pendragon books first but since it's the last two books i shall read the others first, hehee. dont think pendragon:before the war book 1, 2, 3 will come out in singapore any time soon so yeahh): oh i almost forgot, i just finished reading book two of the the the the oh gosh i forgot its series name, but basically its title is EVIL STAR. the one sherwynn lent me :D i thought the first book(raven gate) was a tad nicer, but evit star was super nice towards teh back, hehes.

k, enough of all these...wanna write smth emo/cheem till the-desired-day-of-16oct((:

the wind is howling louder than the wolf. the curtains are getting out of place. papers on the table are fighting to get away from the weights pressed on them, to join with the swirling of the wind. click click click. the keyboard goes, and here i am, unwilling to click the "shut down" button on my desktop. i'm not motivated enough, i know that. exams are barely a month away and i'm as lost as i was when i took my ca1 test at the start of this year. everyone around me are suppressing their temptations and choinging like crazy. but what do i do? i'm scared i dont do well, i'm scared i've lost the ability alr..
interwinding thoughts are ciculating around my head, on how i felt today, and how i reacted to it today. i asked myself, does it matter what others think or say to you? but if it doesnt, then why do i feel angry? i mean, it's my life, ain't it. who cares about others rightt. but noo... the fact that we live in a society means that people socialise eh. i dont like to argue, i dont like to fight, but bottling up my anger and feelings like today was...difficult. it all seems worthwhile afterwards as you know you had missed the probability of a big arguement.. but it doesnt seems right. it is so difficult to treat others with understanding, to look from their perspective. i learnt, i wont blabber out stuff tt might hurt others, cos the person will probably dont respond like me, i will learn, to crawl into her skin and walk around it galiantly.
i wished i cld use this sentence in my show as a motto: 笑口常开,好运自然来.

天天夜夜-F.I.R
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever
ever survive
How do I how do I
Oh how do I live

:D

cant take my eyes off you((:

2009-09-14T17:33:00.003+08:00

ENGLISH ORAL):
WHEN WILL THE DAY COME WHEN I DONT "ERR.ERR.ERR" AND DONT REGRET SMTH I SHLD HAVE SAID ONCE I STEPPED OUT OF THE CLASSROOM):

ahhaa... but you know what. i think it is better than my chinese o lvl oral -.-
but yeah.... shall forget about it since its overrrr!!!!!!

first day of school was okay.... was freaking sleepy, hehe! still am now!
i shall stop wasting my life here and do my research for chinese si han and get back to it asap(:
gahhh... oh great, have to send some emails):

Phantom of Opera-Think of Me

Think of me
Think of me fondly
When we've said goodbye
remember me once in awhile
promise me you'll try
on that day that not so distant day when you are far away and free
if you ever find a moment spare a thought for me

And though it's clear
though it was always clear
that this was never meant to be
if you happen to remember
stop and think of me

Think of August when the trees were green
don't think about the way things might have been
Think of me
Think of me waking silent and resigned
imagine me trying to hard to put you from my mind

Think of me
please say you'll think of me whatever else you chose to do
there will never be a day when I won't think of you

flowers fade the fruits of summer fade
they have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me that sometimes
you will think of me

:D

sorry, blame it on me.

2009-09-13T18:16:00.002+08:00

if you were given a chance, would you rather a one week holiday with tons of homework and tests on the first week once you get back to school, or would you rather just maybe 2 days of the week without any hwk without any tests when you go back, with all the time for you to go on the net, watch tv, read your books, catch up with friends or just sleep? which wld you choose. hmm. :D

i practically wasted my day today, but am so not feeling guilty. okay fine, i admit, just a little teeny weeny bit guilty(: was supposed to go library agn with ky like ytd but she was smsing me this morning whether we can meet in the afternoon at CC there.... then drag drag drag until afternoon she also didnt sms... then finally when she did i had smth on and cldnt leave the hse-.- ah wells. and i wasted my day today cos i kept sleeping, watching tv, reading.... and basically not doing my work. okay, fine, i finished up the last two sep 30 math papers and marked them but still... i guess my mind just isnt on hwk and revision today, after one week of it(: but i forgive myself, i think. hahas.

but at least i finished my hwk, except for the stoopid geog paper which i'm gonna type out the lvl qn cos basically there's like 3 of the same qn and i aint gonna write 4 pages of it 3 times. but i haven studied for chem QA test which i really really hoped its not tmr. cos if it is, i'm practically dead. but i guess i'll give up DEJA VU later just to study): then i can watch SAMURAI GIRL(:

loved CODY BANKS 2 DESTINATION LONDON to the max ytd(: SCARY MOVIE 4 was pretty pretty lame. had snippets and ideas form this show i forgot its name. hahas(:

kk... i better get back to work.
YEA RIGHT.

SCHOOL'S TMR!
and it only seemed ytd i typed" last day of school!"

Akon- Sorry, Blame It On Me lyrics

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my sons
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

:D

thinking too much hurts.

2009-09-12T09:13:00.003+08:00

i'm freaking sleepy.
i dont think i can make it to the library, hahas.
and i'm officially broke. i spent too much these days and of course the day when i went to ion with chien. gotta save back all these when sch reopens :O

it all seems so surreal. so ambitious. so "not us". we already promised to do it, not only for the obvious reason, but also for a greater cause. but can we really do it? can we really keep this passion till, let's say, next year? and when we have other ppl to join us, will we really work tgt properly? will you guys really do what you said you wld when i asked you what happens if the others "step over you" and you start to regret? if it already so difficult choosing ppl, can we still hope that after this everything will go smoothly? or ami just being me again, worrying too mcuh, thinking too much? but there's no wrong to that i suppose? i really hope at the end if the day, everything will be worth it. everything.

Akon-Right Now(NA NA NA)
It's been so long, that I haven't seen your face,
I'm trying to be strong, but the strength I have is washing away,
it won't be long, before I get you by my side,
& just hold you, tease you, squeeze you, tell you whats been on my mind

it's so nice seeing all of you again(:

2009-09-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

nice trip we had today!
sure... 47++min worth of mrt, plus dono how long of bus... plus the legendary ten min walk, which ended up like maybe 30 min? before we reached the place? lols. but at least we didnt get lost, well not exactly. or else i really dono what to do in the super ulu place, lols!

learnt a lot frm our trip though. felt kinda guilty and shocked and surprised^^

i'm lagging behind my schedule (mostly the revision part) for holiday, must chiong!

hwk left: phy wkst, phy structured on light, 2 amath papers that supposed to be hand in on 30th sept (ehh, there were 3 more other papers we had to do lorh, lucky finished liao!)...
seems very little eh, yeah right.

shall do my chem research for the wkst and geog research now):

:D

don't wanna lose you now

2009-09-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

HAVE NEW SPECS! WILL GET IT NEXT THURS!

right(: last day of first aid course finally! no more long long hrs in subway! my bag and pinafore smells like subway can, so disgusting! hahaa.

yay, we going to check out our cip thingy tmr! its like in choa chu kang-.- hope we dotn get lost... like that day to st john headquarters, lols!

eh, i ask you, do i look like a tomato? hahh! or a mole? lols((:

JOYCELYN! HOW'S OUR BF?! (hehehe, inside joke!)

Don't Wanna Lose You Now lyrics
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you, baby
Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And I, I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care

[Chorus:]
Don't wanna lose you now
Baby I know we can win this
Don't wanna lose you now
No no, or never again

I've got this feeling you're not gonna stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losing
Of slipping away
It keeps getting closer, baby
Whatever reason to live that I've had
My place was always beside you
And I wish that I didn't need you so bad
Your face just won't go away

[Chorus]

I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you

Don't wanna lose to loneliness
Girl I know we can win
Don't wanna lose to emptiness, oh no
Never again

[Chorus]

have lots of stuff to do):

:D

yawns'

2009-09-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

PAMELA IS IN MY HOUSE NOW!
say hi pamela!
aww...she's on the phone, haix.
okayy. have stuff to do.
ciaos!

:D

350th post--350=我爱你!

2009-09-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

woo, the others are still at st john's hq and i'm here:D not my fault la, wanted to stay too la, but ive got smth on, hehe(:

eventful day today! we got lost so many times!
you want the full account, be prepared!

1)C&J decided to take the bus even though i wanted mrt cos mrs tan gave them the directions for bus.
2)dropped off at the wrong stop, cldnt find the stop we're supposed to go to to take the second bus.
3)tried to find our way to raffles hotel by walking thru the whole citiylink
4)cldnt find, C&J decided to take mrt to lavender
5)C&J decided suddenly to take bus again at teh busstop outside the shopping mall
6)cldnt find the stop.i had to bring the guides back to mrt while cheryl and joycelyn continued finding.
7)we stopped off at lavender and took a bus,
8)after one stop i asked the bus uncle and realised we're going the wrong way.
9)i sat down and pressed the button for the bus to stop at teh next stop.
10)some sec ones came and tell me we're going in the opp direction-.-
11)waited for a bus in the opp bus stop andd finally got to the place
12)we're late.

fun, no? lols, we're super sorry okayy! let's hope tmr will be fine cos J decided to take bus agian and try cos then it will be almost direct(:

i dont know if i'm getting a new pair of specs cos my mama said ytd she wanted to change. ahhaa.

oh oyu know what, my story up there havent finished.

13)it was time for me to get home so i got on the bus.
14)supposed to count 4 stops after where i was, but the bus didnt stop at one stop so i didnt count and got off at the 5th stop.
15)the 5th stop was real far away from the 4th stop.
16)i was at the back of esplanade-.-
17)there wasnt any bus stop opp so that i can go back to my stop.
18)i walked and walked and found a busstop which had bus 57 which cld bring me back to tp, instead to bishan if i had taken the bus i was supposed to.
19)waited freaking long
20)was freaking tired in the bus.

cool, no?

lols.

the st john's hq there very... ulu and freaky. ahhaa! my 阿飘! (inside joke)

:D

一层一层地拨开你的心.

2009-09-07T18:50:00.002+08:00

yipee(:
went to library and managed to fight until a seat lorh... you shld so see the ppl when they chiong up to get tables^^ i was alone at first, then a guy came and sit, lols. did finish my emath paper, revised emath, more emath qns, revise ss, did more emath qns, home! so basically is 10 to around 530, 540? shorter than ytd but number one, i didnt have lunch, number two, i was tired. hahas! at around dono what time joey and her friend came again and they sat at my table since there were still seats! i saw her friend in the morning, like when the library just opened, so i was wondering whether joey would come, and in the end she did! lols. and shortly after, TRISTINA and her friend came. like lols. she was :O to see me...me too la okayy(:

i'm basically starving now. first aid course tmr! not attending, just looking after the guides and to DISCUSS SOME STUFF. yea right. tehee XD

"why you study so hard? when i was sec 3 at this time i was playing!"
CANNOT MEH. HAHA.
*********************************
"is it one month till EOYs"
YES.
"then why you studying"
ONE MTH LEH..
"i even wht right, o lvls leh, see that one(joey) still playing!"

-the person was was sitting directly in front of me and is VEYR VEYR NOISY when she does her stuff(: aka tristina lee(:

waiting for phone call!
:D

on and on..

2009-09-07T08:12:00.003+08:00

will head off to library ltr(:

why do we blog? why do we go on facebook? why do we twitter? why do we spent so much time on social networking sites(sns)? we blog, to express our thoughts and feelings cos we cant say them? we blog, to tell the whole world what we had been doing? we socialise online to..? yep, we will first get attracted to the applications and activities you can do on sns..but why? i'm serious, surviving in the vitual world doesnt gurantee you a success in the real world. its so different, with the computer, you can "redo", "delete", "backspace", but in life, there's only now, no going back into future to change things(at least not yet)... why the freak do we blog and write about stuff that happened? maybe it cld relieve some stress...maybe it cld portray yourself as a different person? i dont know.

what actually got me to blog? to facebook? to friendster? to tweet? i'm really sorry to say, but it's cos of peer pressure. i rmb i was p6 when i got my first blog with my friend. at tt point of time i didnt know what a blog even is and my form teacher was going on and on about it. and soon after came friendster, my personal blog, a chinese blog, facebook, twitter(inactive though). why are they so popular when so many have been harmed because of addiction? they why do people hate their enemies when they harm them? and internet is not guilty? eh?

but you know what, there isnt a need to have a reason for you to do things eh. "i'm interested", and you click and sign up for whatever you want! sometimes, finding the reason is as good as not finding it ^^

and you know what, there shldnt be a need to "redo", "delete", "backspace", because in life, just click "save as", whether it's good or bad, they all serve as great experiences and lessons yeah?

:D

something about you.

2009-09-06T19:11:00.003+08:00

whoohoo. study date was awesome!

first we got to the library and got seats! i did my ss sbq first then attempted on the freaking chem paper which was like ()&(^*%$$#)&_! through writing msg on a piece of paper cos we didnt watch to talk and break the silence, we decided to go for lunch then if when we come back they're no more space we move to somewhere else(: and guess wht, we met joey and her friends in the library! at first i saw this girl with blue hairband and wearing our sch's green shirt, i thought it was joey's sister cos with that hairband she totally looked like her! then i saw her friend i was like, eh her sister so close to her friend ah. then i realised it shld be joey and ky agreed too(: so i smsed her asking her if she was in the library! hehes. tehn when we went off for lunch we gave up our seats to them since they were like on the floor doing work on the chairs! teeheeXD

so during lunch we had a good good talk(: hee hee hee. the girl at teh table beside us was liek so kong bu. she was pasting the glitter thingy on her phone and her whole phone except the screen was filled la! then ky cldnt stand it and was saying the woman shld just paste the screen with the glitters too, hahha! right, so when we went back to the library, we found that joey and friends went for lunch without bringing their bags, so ky wanted to be like the librarian put a post-it requiring her not leave possessions behind when they suddenly appeared! so much for our plan(: we finally decided to head off the teh sky garden at the blocks here! it was so windy and cooling! ky even put on a jacket can, and she didnt even put on in the library! hehe. and over there i did my chem wkst (the self-learning one) and phy structured and emath paper. you know what, teh emath paper was the only stuff i could do almost everything la... i was doing until very shuang when ky had to go off lerh):

so basically we work from around 10am to around 6pm, with maybe one hr for lunch? tht's still a lot right! aiyoh i like first time do so many hwk on one day. i was falling asleep in the skygarden but how can right... then i was dying to pee also, lols! nt my fault lah, we only went to the washroom before lunch and after tt i kept drinking water and i mention how windy the sky garden was right. hahah! then when we "parted", i though i was at another block so i said goodbye to ky at teh lift there.. then i walk walk walk then realise the lift where ky was was my block there one lorhs! hehee.

productive day today after all((: but left a lot of blanks which i hve to figure out asap cos i didnt have some materials with me and i so need references badly.... seeing wht ky was doing make me feel like i was doing some baby stuff cos her jc work look so... kong bu! but i could do one qn leh! the surds one ahhaa... well actually i just said it out lahh.. then she asked me this qn which was supposedly to be easy but in the end i cldnt do it cos it was DIFFERENTIATION! learning next year de lorhs. hheheh!

feel like getting up early to run tmr, then go to macs for breakfast, then head off to library to do my work agn lehh.... cos when i'm outside i wont waste time falling asleep, reading books, watch tv or stuff like that. do work can la, but if revise for exams tehn cannot la... still wondering if i shld go tmr... but no one pei wo lehh.. hmmms.

right. gt to go for dinner soon i guess!
i just realise i had a lot of "lorhs", "la" in my post today....
haha maybe becuase i'm tired and high?
now, that's juxtaposing aint it?
or is it just... no-sense(:
desperate for a phone call converstaion now!

a good start to the holidays=a good holiday?

:D